Monday, May 30, 2005

6:15 PM

I'm having a hard time. Doing what? Living.

*sighs* Dang I’m bored. I just came from Ateneo, ‘cause I got my books to be used this school year… I reached my school at around 10:40. There were loooooooooooooooooooong lines, and that annoyed me. It took me 40 minutes to get my books! *argh!* It was so frustrating, I’m a patient person but that kinda irritated me..:)

The other day, I went to a friend’s house… Well, her Mom’s clinic. Her Mom’s a Dentist, MY dentist. *laughs*, she’s gooooood loooooking. Ambait pa. *laughs again* Whatever… She likes a lot of bands, and loves going to gigs. ANYWAY, Wala.:p Sabi nya lang that if she knows some gigs, she’ll text me, para lang malaman ko… So I can tell some friends and we can come over.:) FUN… *LAUGHS* Labo. Ingat ka kung nababasa mo to Tin, ingat ka…:D

School’s nearing and I’m getting more bored. More and more and more.:p I’m nearly done writing a song {OPM-tagalog] and a poem, and a story…:p *laughs* I’m BORED!!!

Gimmick nanaman uliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! Haha! Mamayamaya. Night gimmick… Whatever. I want to watch UNLEASHED! Haha! Maybe later.:p



Anne, I’m also writing a story!:) Like you are.:) Haha… I’ll let you read it when its finished.:p

Miggy, Kitakita tayo nila Gino at Joseph… Gimmick reunion.:))

Jay, dayaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Talo ako sa bet.:p



Chatting with Anne, Carme/l, Jay, and Julius.:)
I HAVE to GO.:)

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Friday, May 27, 2005

3:15 PM

This post is gonna be short, like my life. Maybe. Hopefully not...

Alrighty. This post is just going to be short ayt? ‘Cause Im going to go Mall hopping again. Alone.:p Whatever. I’m just Going to say a few things… Haha!

The other day, well, yesterday, I went biking. While trying to freakin’ skid, the OLD mountain bike’s gears slipped. Now, I have a bloody long scratch… Right. It hurts, it stings a LOT but it doesn’t really bother me. I can ignore certain things like pain.:)

ALSOOOOOOOOO… Yesterday, I was bored, SO BORED that if I couldn’t find anything else to do aside from playing with Pretz and Oreo [dogs], I would kill someone.:p Not really. I was texting Anne when Miggy called. Now I’ve discovered I can text, talk, and play with the dog at the same time.:)) How’s that? Haha! I’ve got to go now… Well, not in a few more minutes.:)

I’m going to copy Anne/Karola. Haha! I’ve have NO sense of originality…:) I’m also going to make another blog where I’m going to post My short stories and poems.:p Gaya-gaya ako? Tell me on the tagboard.:D Okay, well not really, ‘cause I saw the idea on another blog.:) Sorry if I’m intruding or if my post annoys someone out there.:)

I MISS? wala...:)

GTG mallhopping! AND watching UNLEASHED and HOUSE OF WAX.. Take care guys!!
ian here signing off.:)

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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

7:57 PM

My body hurts. I feel pain. And strangely, I like it...

If, for some reason I could kill myself and still go to Heaven, I would...


I WON! Haha! Yeah... In grappling.:p I beat 3 people straight. 3 people.:)) Tsamba ako... Haha! Lakas ko raw?!?!... Di ah. I just work out a "little".:) For some reason the people watching clapped.:)) Sabi ni sensei [teacher] o shihan [master] Copino isasali nya raw ako sa UFC...:)) LoL I really enjoyed my Aikido sessions today. I only usually take the morning session, because its as tiring as playing badminton for 4 hours... really. Today I wanted to beat my body up. So I took both the morning AND the afternoon session. I just feel bad, masakit. I felt pain during the afternoon session. Pain while rolling, the high-thrust, back rolling, slamming and grappling. Whatever. Who cares right?... :p

U'ng mga kasama ko kanina sa aikido ay sina, Kuya Edgar, Lolo Anthony, David, Jay, Verna, Willma[who looks like a Cathy.:D], Von, Earl, Jay, Lyman, DAGUL :)), SHAOLIN KID :)), my sis, and others.. Lalang.:)


Haha... Whatever... Huh. I'm excited to go to a friend's condo.:p Jamming until 5 in the morning, with incoming 4th year, and incoming 3rd year students.:) BUT you don't care right? What the hell. I'll post it anyway.:p Our plan is to meet in McDo muna, then go straight to the guy's house where we'll play guitar and piss the neighbor's off with the drums... kung madadala.:p IF not di the Box nalang...:p

Gago si Miggy.. nilagay sa testi ko, "Ian likes to go out, but has no one to go out with." :)) WHATEVER. Haha! Still obnoxious miggy. Still the same you.:p My annoying violin playing little mouse-friend.:D hehe...
I don't have any loadddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!!! sa BOTH SUN AND GLOBE FONES.:) Hingi ng load migss...



Last STUFF...:p
Lakas ko ba?! Haha! O'ba?! :D JOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)

bye... i gotta, gotta, pump iron.:) and call miggy, my psychiatrist.:)) AND not eat again..:p Chatting with JAY,JULIUS & ELIZ and having a great time..:))
GTG.:)




[Just a fact... pinsan pala ni Julius si Iggy(the girl in my links section)... at si Jake pinsan nya rin pala... Lalang, small world.:)]



I miss someone so badly... I'm so pathetic...:)

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Monday, May 23, 2005

10:00 PM

Angry at the world and myself at the same time.

Maybe the f-ing horoscope in Inquirer was right. Not that I care.:)

Life really sucks. MY life really sucks. Haha! Maybe it's just a spell. Whatever.
I gave, "kuya" Ernest [drummer], Don [lead(DAMN good) guitarist], Francis [bass] and etc. my number. It's because they're going to tell me when they're going perform in a gig. They said I can go into their gigs for free. Well. Most of the time.:p And whenever they have a jamming session with other bands o kahit sila sila lang, I can join in. Actually, I can bring some friends with me... Kung may gusto. pero wala naman ata... Haha!..

I'm green... Lalang. I feel sick. Inside. Masakit ata.:)

On aikido... I can somersault already.:p Left and right. Haha! Aikido's fun, especially the rolls. The back rolls, and front rolls and the grappling.-it's like wrestling but you can't slam them on the mat.:p I even remember whne I was feeling a bit groggy/sleepy, and when I rolled I hit the wall.:)) They all laughed at me but I still smiled ha. I'm a sport.:D

I'm just sooooooooooooo... pissed at someone. That's why I won't accept the calls. Haha. Ha. Funny.-_-

Anne I CAN scale. But I might not be up for being a lead guitarist.:( I don't think I'm good enough... Galing nio lahat eh. I'm good, but not that good. I haven't really played with a band yet. Just with a drummer.:) Just with a very good a drummer...:p

Haha... I'm talking to Miggy. AS IN RIGHT NOW.:)) we're talking about nothing which usually turns up into nothing. Oh. By the way, MIGS, thanks for aking Lian, Dina and the others to add me ha.:)

I'm going to sleep at 3 again and wake-up at 6-8 for no reason. I feel like I could commit suicide if I don't beat my body up. BTW, I'm not eating much anymore. La akong gana. Haha! Kakatawa no?...

I'm going to sleep-over with a couple of friends in another friends condo. Jamming. Whatever. Friday to Saturday.:)


WAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLAAAAAA ako'ng magawa... I'm going to watch stars. And light a candle. and pray. A LOT. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha... Like I have a chance to get what I pray for.:p


P.S. BTW, yung manggugulo pa, harapin nyo ako. I can break either your wrists, shoulderblades, fingers and a lot more.>:D Try me. Especially don't piss my friends off... I might do something nasty to you.:) I am fiercely loyal to m friends. OK?!?!:)


I'm just pissed at the world. And at myself at the same time. Again. Like sucks. Thank God for friends.:)

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Sunday, May 22, 2005

2:40 PM

I've stopped believing in miracles...:(

I did'nt get to blog yesterday. I hated that.:)

Sa mga tao dyan na nanggugulo, wag niyo na i-diin. Yaku ni tata nai... You won't like me when I'm angry.:) Anyway, summer's ending wayyyyyy... too soon. It is getting a bit boring, but I don't want summer to end too quickly.:)

I went to BigR the other day. Instead of going to Eastwood. ENIWEYSH, I got to buy a Bench stretch black shirt and Dickies pants. I WANTED to buy a denim jacket, but they did'nt have the neck design I wanted.::(( That sucked. I wanted to buy a denim jacket so that I could go TOTALLY denim... denim jacket, jeans, and denim sneaks. Cool! Haha... :)

WHILE in the BigR I went to Starbucks. Ahhh... The soothing power of a hot steaming BIG cup of marshmallow mocha.:) I got to go there after eating at Max's restaurant.:D

I'm broke once more.:(( Broke, but content.:p

I miss school. I MISS Ateneo! The muttering before waking up at 4 in the morning, the warm protein meals, the morning exercises and the leaving for school at around 5:00 or 5:15... The Jamming with my classmates during break, the shouting of the teachers telling us to lower the volumes of our guitars and angelic[LoL] voices, and most especially the running for 3.5 kilometers during PE.:)) We'd be wasted, but no matter how tired we were, we'd still play basketball after running.:)

I get little injuries from aikido, but it's ok. Last session, I did a closed fist rolling, I hit my head on the mirror, on the wall. And now my arm's still sore from the loss in grappling yesterday. My FIRST loss out of 2 WINS.:) I've got such a big head right now... Haha! Though I got sore Left arm, my pride was unscathed. The guy's at least 25 or 30. So, it's okay that I lost. I still had fun anyway.:)

AMERICAN IDOL: Haha. I watch the show.:) And I'm a BO Bice FAN and always has been dati pa. Just a thought.:)

SA LAHAT NG NAKAKABASA NITO, ANSWER THE HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME QUIZ. The link somewhere on the left side of this page. Thank you! Arigato Gozaimas! Salamat!:)

I gtg. I'm going out again. To where? Make a guess.:)

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Saturday, May 21, 2005

7:15 PM

hayyy... short.

I lost. Daya... ANG LAKAS ni kuya EDGAR. I was wasted!!! PARANG nabali nga arm ko eh... sa Grappling... My first LOSS. still. I LOVE GRAPPLING!!! YEAH!

I'm annoyed/angry/ticked/pissed at someone...

WHATEVER. Ang ikli ng post na to... wala nang time eh..:p
I'm happy.:)

Chatting with anne...:p
gtg. VYE.:)

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Thursday, May 19, 2005

11:14 AM

RED?! Me?! C'mon. Yeah right...:p


Your Heart is Red


What Color is Your Heart?
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Yeah right. C'mon? AKO?!?... Damnit. 've taken this test 3 times ganun pa rin.:))

At the moment, I'm just watching Tv. Bd3p kasi ako eh.

Mamaya sa aikido we're going to do something different.:p If you make a mistake during the rolling and grabbing the arnis/gun you'll have a choice. Either sasayaw, kakanta o palo ng arnis. Ako? Mamaya? Kakanta nalang ako.:))

C JAY NATALO sa bet namin! In the American Idol Bet. Pinili nya c Anthony. I picked Bo bice! YEAH!!! Rockerrrrrr... TALO c Anthony. NOW... The bet goes like this. If the contestant you pick loses first, you have to kiss the aikido mat na may PAWIS. The power or sweet and salty. KADIRI!!!:))

BO rocks!!!

Imma go now. Pinapaalis na ako eh.:)

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Monday, May 16, 2005

8:44 PM

candlelit shadows...

I'm booooooooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeddddddd....
I said it. I AM. Well. Not as much as before... still I get bored. I get bored playing with the puppy, I get bored playing the stupid game from california [my aunt sent it], re-reading my books, watching tv, gimmicking, doing chores, drawing, singing, painting, playing the guitar, drums, annoying my sister...

Again, I'm not really in the mood to blog.

I want to go swimming! Kahit dyan lang sa Gems... anywhere. The best place t go swimming for me is Club Manila East. After playing golf, you can go straight to swimming, kayaking, jogging around or eating in their restaurant.:)

Anne, miss rin kita.:p Sorry about not replying sooner. I just have a big problem of being busy and misplacing my fone.

Miggy, Goodluck sa braces!!!

Hahy. God. I'm really bored.

Imma gonna draw and finish reading the books I just bought.:)

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Sunday, May 15, 2005

9:41 PM

The ability to deceive others is perfected through a lot of practice on myself.:(

How sad is that?… A life of sarcastic smiles and fake hellos.

[I’m currently listening to my almost full Mp3 of incubus-linkin park-maroon 5]

I got that smiles and hellos thing from Cessa’s blog. Haha… Like the title? Whatever.

The other day I went to Eastwood. For what? Nothing… I just wanted to wander around. I had a little snack at Starbucks, bought a book, stood around, watched a movie and others. You know. Stuff.:) There was even this guy, around my age, who bumped into me and made the mistake of cursing me and pissing m off. I scared him, and told him to go out into the world and make children. Not in those words of course.:)) After scaring the guy off I met old classmates, and friends. And we traversed the concrete forest of Eastwood until 1:00 am! I’m planning on doing it again sometime.:)

YESTERDAY I was up all night err… texting and calling, and talking, and laughing and annoying. Haha! During that tym I learned I couldn’t join them kasi of course… I was at home… nangiinggit pa sila! Daya They tried to annoy me. TRIED.:)) They even brought good news! Miggy had braces… [“Ian, I’ve got braces! We’ve got something in common? Nast(y)!”] Miggy mouse. Hehe… Rehg also called. May kinwento ako sa kanya at inasar ako nilang magpipinsan.,,:)) [“Uy kilig! Uy kinikilig!”] Puede daw maging teleserye ang buhay ko. DAW. I fell asleep with the fone still on. It’s a good thing our househelp turned it off about 2 hours later. [5:00 am]

Ei… I got new webcam pics at friendster.:p Share.

I found out something this morning. My Dad’s a Born-again Christian. Haha… I’ve always thought he was a Roman Catholic like me. I never imagined…:) I’m not angry. I don’t have anything bad against the religion. Just mildly surprised.:p


P.S.
Miggy remind mo kay Natalianne a.k.a. Lian na i-add ako sa friendster... . and oh, I’ll text you or err… call.:)



Mahirap mag-mahal ng lihim.-From the status of Cessa. Again. Wala lang…

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Friday, May 13, 2005

2:20 PM

bored.:)

I took this test.:p wala lang... I was bored! ill just post some stuff... 'cause i don't really feel like posting..:)


Ian, your Emotional IQ is 132.

This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Tickle's Emotional IQ test. But your Emotional IQ score is much more than just a number: it's an indicator of success. Research has shown that people with high emotional intelligence scores — not necessarily those with the highest IQ scores — tend to be the most valued and productive employees and have the longest and happiest romantic relationships. So, where are you most emotionally smart? Your test results show that your strongest suit is empathy — your ability to see things from someone else's point of view.


[the song "you and me is stuck in MY head!!! haha!]

gtg. imma go mallhopping.. .eastwood, mega, galle... etc.:p tc guys!!!


VyE...:))

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

11:26 PM

The stupider people think you are, the more surprised they’ll be when you kill them.:)) Joke lang ha?!

I’m going to the drum and advanced [yeah! advanced!!!] guitar lessons later. Excited ba ako? Oo naman!
-I can't find anything to post about.-


Flashback: Woosh! Hehe…

Yesterday I enrolled in the ADMU. I finished the enrollment process quickly pero ang tagal ng sundo. Rawr.:p Soo… nag hintay lang ako sa Mcdo.;) While waiting in Mcdo, I texted Karola. Lalang.:D

After going to AHS we went to Eastwood. Call me an Eastwood boy.:)) I just looked around, bought some books [Dragon Masters and The Sitter (R.L. Stein)], ate some, met some, etc.;)
(We were supposed to watch a movie but we did’nt have much time eH.:p )

END of FLASHBACK: Bilis no?!



Kaya ko na yung lead ng “Bakit ba”. It’s a very easy lead. STILL it sounds cute.:)) Makes you think. SORTA. I need a pick… Yung magandang 25 Php lang.:P Pero wala akong oras para bumili eh…:(

[“Bakit, bakit ba, ako’y ngayo’y nag-iisa. Bakit, bakit, bakit ba… Ako’y ngayo’y mahal mo ba, ayokong ma-sorpresa bakit ba…”] ----yan ata yung lyrics… not sure.:)

OTHER STUFFZ:

I like singing! Haha! Labo no? Just to myself.:)

May 2 tao dya’ng hindi namasnin sa AHS kahapon.:)) Joke lang.:)

I’M SAVING UP FOR ANOTHER Electric Guitar. Starting at about 100 Php.:(( I’m Broke. It’s because I used most of it up already.:)


ISA PAh:

PEOPLE attention! Haha!:p May mga nilagay ako’ng bagong pic sa friendster pix ko. Wala lang… SHARE.:)

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Monday, May 09, 2005

9:25 PM

I'm just here pondering the inconceivable monotony of my life.:)

I took the music lessons around3-5 in the afternoon. Hahahahahahahaha... It was cool.:) The drum teacher was good. And if music was a religion, the guitar player is a GOD. damn! The guy was good. And he has a band! Rock on kuya Don![woah, it ryhmes..]:p Sabi nya raw na ako raw one of his best sudents! haha... RIGHT. kse 2 kaming naka-advanced guitar lead lessons, technique lang naman daw, kse maraming marami na akong alam.:) [ang yabang ko langya!] The other guy is 17.;)

I bought a pair of drumsticks, 510 Php! WHAAAAT!? For a pair of friggin sticks you pay 510. Labo.:) Then there was this hot -Monochrome Black Guitar- On display. I'm saving up for it.:) But I want an Ibanez. The BEST brand...

Haha.. gtg..


Light a candle and look at stars.:)

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Sunday, May 08, 2005

7:31 PM

VALENTINES is a cruel holiday in which people pour lemon juice on the thin paper hearts of the unattached.:)

It’s Mother’s Day! Haha! Not Valentines! Nice...

The best gift I could give my Mom for Mother’s Day or any other day for that matter is for me to have a girlfriend. W.T.F.! HECK NO. So I just considered some alternatives...:) This day’s been pretty normal.

We went to (The Divine Master) this morning. Duh. First let me explain what the TDM is. It’s a small mini-Church/Chapel run by nuns. I think, but a Priest still holds masses… They have this huge garden with a variety of plants and a 9 ft. [ata!:p] tall statue of Jesus Christ. Before, when I was a kid, while my parents were having mass, I would play with the other little kids in the huge garden. Those were the days… I wanna be a kid again!:) Not that I’m that old. I just love the place. It’s not that crowded, and it’s serene.:)


Socrates: to be is to do.
Aristotle: to do is to be.
Frank Sinatra: do be do be doo..:))


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I think I sprained my arm, my right arm, ‘cause I lifted weights too much and it feels f-ing sore! Motivation. Haha. Yeah. I did 326 pumps on my left arm and about 450 on the right in about an hour and a half.:)) That’s why I think I sprained my arm… but I’ll still pump! I pushed myself too much. I’m trying to push myself to the limit… I’ve jogged, shoveled, lifted, swam, fasted, and much, much more. Whatever. I’ll stop. To sacrifice something for one thing; it seems kinda stupid but to me it makes a lot of sense… What kind of person am I. Damn, the only language I speak is Loser… Joke.:)
***************

I HAVE LOAD NA!!!


Time to light a candle and watch stars again.:)

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1:00 AM

Heck is where people go when they dont believe in Gosh.:))

I know how to play the drums already but I'll take lessons to improve them.;)

By the way... I exchanged my sneakers for another pair. The first pair sucked like ****. I bought denim sneakers. They cost me 2963.75 Php... Crap. I'm sooooo broke.But All i need now is a Denim jacket and ill go totally all denim!!!:)) No really I'm going to save up for a denim jacket.:p I have 3 bandannas. They're very useful in this heat. A blue-black one, an orange-black, and a black and white... Hmmm... Angas!!!:))

I just noticed a while ago that the lead guitarist of Mayonnaise had a red guitar. It looks exactly like mine. What a coincidence.:))

HEY ELIZ... I can't reply to your messages ok? ON my sun fone i mean...:) k? tc.:D

Just for some reason I'm happy. Haha! I've been singing to myself all day... Totoy diba? I'm just giddy. Kinda Ecstatic.. But when I'm happy I don't let people notice it. I just smile a little. Haha... and I put it here. At kapag ako'y bad3p lagi akong nakangiti...:)
-["'cause its you and me.."]-
I hate light weights, I can beat up or scare an asshole way bigger than me, I'm kinda good at arnis, and I know how to use a katana be it wooden or real, like the one I have here at home..:p Wala lang.. Share...:)



"Ang puso, parang bote. Kapag nabasag mahirap na muling mabuo. Ngunit tandaan mo, mabasag man ang puso mo, may isang taong handang masugatan sa basag na piraso, upang buuin muli ito." -Hahaha...



Btw. If you want something badly or just want to thank God or sumthin', do what I do when I'm bd3p. Light a candle outside. I just did.

Imma gonna go look at stars now...:)

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Wednesday, May 04, 2005

4:43 PM

Who's idea of a sick joke was it to put an "s" in the word lisp?:)) Bwiset no?!

I'm bored. Duh. As Usual...:p

All I do is act on my passions and they call it sin. All I do is tell the truth and they call me a hypocrite. All feel is pain and sorrow and they call it love. All I do is pour my heart out to empty pages and they call it poetry.-guess who? sino pa?!


JUST THOUGHTS TO START THE POST...

There is dignity in not giving up on someone you truly love but there is more dignity in letting them go so they can experience better love.That shows your true love because you then become unselfish and through putting others first, unconditional love grows.

There is respect in fighting gallantly to win someone's heart another time but an even greater respect comes from fighting hard and knowing when to stop.Even though you would give anything to have the past back, that person has touched your life in a way that will make your future so much brighter.

Accept that, and hold your head high knowing you have captured their heart as well.There is courage in allowing your heart to hurt and grieve but there is greater courage in knowing it will be scarred but stronger as time goes on.For whoever caused those scars has made your life better in some way and it will make you a better person.

Losing the person who meant the most in your life is a humbling experience yet it is even more humbling if you allow it to ruin your life and forsake all you have been blessed with when you feel like you have lost your world.

Remember how many people depend on you and who you are to the world.There is fortitude in holding on for another chance although an even greater fortitude comes from extending your hand and heart in friendship realizing you will still share things with that person no one else ever will.

You will always have the looks and jokes and memories.Don't ever discount how special those things arein your heart and theirs.True love hurts when it is lost, but an even greater love grows inside you through realization that something better is in the world for both of you.

And that there are still things to share with that person even though some feelings may have changed.Take their hand and help them achieve their hopes and dreams because in that there is dignity, respect, courage, humility, fortitude and the unconditional love that will continue to grow in both of your hearts

THE END! haha! :p

God. Na-to-torpe ako. :)) Wala lang. I'm going to take drums this summer and maybe advanced guitar lessons... its gonna be busy! Yeah...

Before i connected to the internet Rehg called. My persistent caring friend. :)) Pinakanta nga ako eh... She said my voice was OK. I thought otherwise...:p I'm still currently lifting light 10 lbs. weights. haha... The stupid as*** said i have to start light. Yet. Yet. Yet! I can lift yung mga 20 lbs. na... humph. leche...

I'm going on a diet. Don't laugh! haha! wala lang, I'ts not really a diet. But I already workout everyday... im just going to cut down what i eat. Period.:)

I have 2 fones. Haha! share..:p



An Ending line by me. :)) "Define love. Admiration, Infatuation, and Excitement can be mistaken for love. Am I inlove? Maybe."

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Monday, May 02, 2005

7:50 PM

Sometimes we put up walls, not to block people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down...:p

dont mind the title again..:p btw. i did...:)

yesterday i bought stuff. yeah. stuff. :p haha... its a 3 day sale in Mega mall, and i was there for the whole day. lakwatsa.. haha! now im broke. i mean really broke. inubos ko na. im out of money with a bit more stuff than before.:)) i even bought a new pack of cards. bicycle yan! orig...:) mababaw lang ako...:))

im dead inside daw. im not. maybe a little broken.:) nothing a little tape could fix... i guess.

both my arms hurt from lifting weights. wla lang... 10 lbs! yeba![wat da..]:p

im dejected, disappointed, deflated, down, depressed, sad, disconsolate, low, disheartened, glum, despondent, low, miserable.. etc. haha! yeah. me. right.:))

HERE are some thoughts...

The major difference between hating and loving perhaps that is whereas to love somebody is to be fulfilled and enriched by the experience, to hate somebody is to be diminished and drained by it. Lovers, by losing themselves in their loving, find themselves, become themselves. Haters simply lose themselves. Theirs is the ultimate "consuming" passion.

It's amazing when you can stand in front of tremendous crowds, without nervousness or fear of error, and say the perfect words, act the perfect way. And the face and sound of one special someone, can leave you at a lost for words...that is love...

END OF thoughts..:p


anne, king, vince, rehg, etc... SORRY GUYS SA MAY SUNCEL KO. F-ING... BASTA. MAY PROBLEM. haha..... crap.:p


"I don't have a girlfriend, I just know someone who would be really mad if they heard me say that." HAHAHAHA!!! JOKE! THATS WHAT OTHER GUYS SHOULD SAY...


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the shademaster

that's me. torpe to the max!:p
ian.15.shy-quiet atenean sophomore.
torpe DAW.:))
god. ibanez guitars. dragons.
cellphones. gimmik. GIGS.
writing stories and poems.
jamming. music. YM.
eastwood. books. stealth..
weights. bikes. anime.
ethnic stuffz. aikido:p

How well do you know me?:p

jammin' it up...

INTERNATIONAL...[ata.:p]

Incubus. Coldplay.
Hoobastank. Maroon5.
Linkin Park. The Calling.
Blink 182. Green Day.
3 Doors down. Puddle of Mudd.
Switchfoot. Weezer.
U2. Matchbox20. Yellow card.


LoKaLe'..:)

Rivermaya. Spongecola.
Mojofly. Sugarfree.
M.Y.M.P. Bamboo.
Moonstar88. Eraserheads.
Sandwich. Mayonnaise.
Kjwan. Parokya ni Edgar.
Session Road. 6cyclemind. Hale.

Chalklit. Gorgeous Garbage.:D

...or else

espada. jay hirit ka patay ka saken.:p
no bashing.
no hating.

no calling me bookish.
no insulting or racism.

no jokes.kidding!

no plaigarizing or i might kill you.
ask permission first before
taking anything from MY blog.
joking!!! muhahahaha!
no really. dont. :p

leave a msg at the tagboard. joke!:p

shadowy wishes

rawr. ang tapang ko dito. papuntang eastwood.:p
canon IXUS 400 digital camera
20G i-Pod
more junk food in my room.
another ibanez electric guitar
a girlfriend.hell no!... la'ng pag-asa!
a 3rd phone.
unlimited load.
MORE friends.
japanese buffet! again.
an inspiration... right.

shadow contact

[[angeltaintedblack]] friendster/YM/e-mail/:
ian_under15@yahoo.com

[add me up ayt?!]

shadowy figures

i'm bored here.:p conceited amp.:))
aoi-chan;master of shadows
anne;luv k0 2! my BesTy.Ü
akiko;jap girl.:D
angel;alive-enix.:p
erika;rainbow-seeker
rica;thoughts nya.:p
isay;is back
ann/gian;gee-ann
gio;giotistic
b-boys;pugad B
saab;incugurl
stab23x;devil's spawn
gerlynn;sunshine and jellybeans
ktine;to infinity and beyond
cessa;little miss sadist
3cia;she is what she is
dale;nostaliaa
nique;out of the ordinary psycho
shang;she who writes
bianca;the funky wild thing
rainne;always the crazy her.:p
mich;the asteeg
maverick;she bites. :p
paula;anime at heart.;)
kambz;the talking sheep goat
iggy;kapamilya ata ni julius.:p
jon;undefined jester
chizu;gakka-mo0n
aisa;dangerously kulot.:p
chel;she is emily
nica;saturnoozfreak.:p
vince;mr.soiree.joke!:p
alex[a?];may sanib
jay;within shattered walls.:D
jopoy ceasar mukhang salad.:));euro-fritz.:p
raph;cool layout addict.:D
mm;milk-chocol8.:p
camille;she rocksss...:p
carmel;fabulous
kat;nakadungaw sa buwan
cathy;sila na ba ni Ej? joke!:p
eliz;one beautiful disaster
luigi;tox-tokwafumet

want me to link you? tell me!
there's a shout box to the right... :p

shadow links

blogger
blogskins
boxtorrents
downloadanime.org
haloscans
tag-board
Funny jokes!
Search? Lookin 4 sumthin?
Attitiude attitiude..LoL
Make new friends!
Spongecola... naaaalala ko ang mga gabi..;p

creds.:p

Basic layout by aoi.:)
Largely Improved by ian.:p

And a thanks to Julius for the "no right click" thing.:p

make some sense

best viewed in 1024 X 768 resolution. a brief history about the author pertaining to the theme of shadow of transcendence. it came about in the wee hours of the early morning while being whisked away into memories of the past etched deep within the mind. bittersweetness that tingled the tastebuds of my emotions and feelings, the only way out for true liberation from this reality is what is behind the shadow of transcendence; suicide. the taste of iron-rust blood coiled with the lingering bittersweetness is the only contemplation of which the simplicity of life has to offer in exchange for the shadow of transcendence. made in the heavens through one creator, an angel borne to serve man; fell from where it belonged to earth where its purity shadowed by boredom and nohing better to do.

enjoy what i make out of maturity and childish fantasies.

wanna.bring.it.out?shout!

sorry guys. i took away the shoutbox.:p it's on my new blog.:)

ancient shadows

December 2004 ::: January 2005 ::: February 2005 ::: March 2005 ::: April 2005 ::: May 2005 ::: June 2005 ::: July 2005 ::: August 2005 :::

i have a shadowed yet innocent mind. yeah. thats me. call me the shademaster.
welcome to my realm

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