beyond the light... ^,..,^

NEW URL.

2005-08-27T17:55:00.000-07:00

OKAY!:D MY NEW blog is done.:p

THIS IS THE URL:
it's www.perpetual-boredom.blogspot.com

leave a message at the tagboard alright?

cute eh.:p

2005-08-12T17:43:00.000-07:00

lalang.:p I'll post a real post soon.:D PISAWT.:))

"But still I see the tears from your eyes, maybe I'm just not the one for you..." :)

2005-07-31T16:39:00.000-07:00

Ang cute ng title no? Galing yan sa "Broken Sonnet". Nilagay ko yan sa title by special request... Haha! Diba? Ngiti cya!:D Miss you.:)

I went to Megamall yesterday. For the 4th time thus week! Weird. I'm usually hanging out in Eastwood with old friends and classmates. The past 3 days I've watched 2 movies, "The Island" and (kahit late na) "Fantastic 4".

If you were there, you could have identified me. I was wearing a green Camel Active shirt, Levis dark blue pants, a dark green Mossimo cap, and Dark blue denim Chuck Taylor Converse shoes. If you saw me, tell me.Ü Because if you saw me, you should have told me, kain sana tayo sa Saisaki! Hehe.:p

While I was walking around, I bought a Hale CD. Well, I bought a spoof shirt first (diet another day, 700 lbs.). I was supposed to buy a 3 doors down cd with it but it was worth about 400 Php. Argh.Ü Kakainis talaga. But it was OK. I think Hale is a good enough band.:p (I'm actually playing with the cd.. Broken Sonnet) I was so sentimental yesterday, and I have no freakin idea why... Haha! Whatever. Maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed or something. Maybe. Ang saya ng buhay eh. Dramatic amp!:))

I'm finding hard to sleep more and more. I slept at 3:20 am last night. No comment.:)

These days have been frustrating, though somewhat dull, annoying but boring. Heartbreakingly sad but overflowing with evident satire. Katawa. Pero anlabo diba? *laughs* I think that proves the fact that I'm angry at the world, and at society because of their unnecessary expectations.

Isay, Erika, Kaygee, Gayle, Jelo at yung iba... Hindi peke yung cd ko! I don't buy fake cd's. Maybe burn them or transfer them to the computer, but I don't buy fake cd's... Ang lakas niyo kase mang-asar kahapon sa confe eh. Hehe... at wag kayo mang-asar ah di lang tungkol sa cd...:)

Oonga pala. Wag nyo pansinin yung gagong nasa tagboard. I'll erase every one insulting message. Even stupid ones. Binura ko na mga messages mo. Amp. Wala kaseng buhay eh. Walang kaibigan. Get a life, LOSER.:)

Hanggang dito nalang. Chat muna ako kasama ang aking mga kaibigan.Ü
PISAWT.:)

Sonnet 17- by Pablo Neruda

2005-07-24T16:12:00.000-07:00

We went to Fiesta resort yesterday to have dinner. I enjoyed myself. Though I'm feeling somewhat lazy that I dont want to get into details... *laughs*

This is nice.:) I'm bored out of my skull. So.. after using the internet.. Ill study in advance. Weird right?:p

Sonnet 17-Pablo Neruda

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms,
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers.
Thanks to your love a certain fragrance,
risen darkly from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where,
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride,
so I love you because I know no other way than this:
where "I" does not exist, nor "you,"
So close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
So close that your eyes close and I fall asleep.

I got to go wish. Bye.:p Chatting with someone.:))

Eastwood rocked.:p

2005-07-17T17:27:00.000-07:00

Life's good.:p

LONG story SHORT.:) I had a good time, drank 6 fraps... walked around, laughed a lot, and watched a gig.:) Sa susunod promise, ako naman manglilibre.:p

Here's a test I just took.:) Cute eh!:))

You are pure, moral, and adaptable.
You tend to blend into your surroundings.
Shy on the outside, you're outspoken to your friends.

You believe that you live a virtuous life...
And you tend to judge others with a harsh eye.
As a result, people tend to crave your approval.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

Yan.. that's it. I gtg.:) Somewhere.:p

???

2005-07-16T14:54:00.000-07:00

Kakagaling ko lang sa classnight... I'm a bit sleepy but there's been something bothering me this past week. And I'm really confused on what to do. Bite me if you see me get sentimental.:))

Basta... Ganun.:(

Amp.

just for a change.. :p

2005-07-14T18:47:00.000-07:00

I've already made a new blog. A new one. :) But I'm still fixing the layout however..:p

www.practicalexecution.blogspot.com

DONT judge it YET.:) Thanks.:p
Bye.. gtg.:p

LSS: Elesi
Status: Single and Lovin it.:p
Lately?: Badtrip...

THE Soiree.Ü

2005-07-10T17:37:00.000-07:00

Well, for once, this is going to be a happy but short(?) post.Ü

The soiree yesterday was the very best I've ever had. Or, based on the responses I've recieved, one of the best our class has had. For me, it could be described in 2 words. IT ROCKED!

At first, the guys and girls assembled in different groups, each individual unsure of what he/she was going to do. BUT, thanks to Cynthia, our offical MC and gracious host, it worked out and he interaction began. It was justt fun. Some people were teased because of their names.. ("Jobim ba?! Bimbo!! *laughs*) some did small talk, ("Nags-soccer ka?! ako rin!"), and others learned that it was a small world... ("Hmmmm, Chatmate?Chatmate! *apir*)

After a few games, (games? haha!:p) we ate a little pizza, and drank a little coke and funchum. During this break, some guys and girls were trying out the instruments "scattered" around the venue.. and some of the girls were good. Then again, some of us were also good. Balanced!:)
The first classband that played was "k-squared" composed of Jobim, Clarence, Mikko (who didn't get to go), Chux, and King. They played "Sulat", "Ulan", "Cigarrete", and others... They were OK.Ü

The next, (in saving the BEST for last!!!:D) was "Chalklit", composed of Enzo[drummer], Sprix [lead guitarist], Bibo[vocals], and Brian[base]... THEY BROUGHT THE HOUSE DOWN. They played and made both guys and girls scream and sing along. Yeah! They were kings.Ü Angas. Pero Astig. EVERYONE felt like we were all in a real gig, and well, hell yeah, it sounded like a real gig. Like I said, Angas nga, pero astig.

The very last performance, was the Vocals of "K-Squared" along with the rest of "Chalklit" minus Bibo. And guess what they played?

"AAAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSSTTTTTTRRRRRRRRRROOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!" And it was a fitting closing "song".:) The bands played well, the food was OK, and the interaction worked fine.Ü

IT WAS ONE HECK OF A GREAT NIGHT.

Highlights during the soiree:::

*Me wanting to bite Adi's head off.-He kept on telling me not to be uhm... torpe.-_-

*Akiko screaming during the Chalkit's performance "Ang Galing!! Astig! Adik!!" and "Idol!" But come to think of it... who wasn't?!Ü nahawa nga ko..:))

*Johanne Doing the back bend stunt.\m/

*Ej arriving wearing the pink shirt. and using the pink fan...:))

*Erika coming up to me, saying my name and last name, then telling me kilala nya pala si Anne.Ü

*King aking me to get the number of ***. Kasi raw crush nya! Nako!:))

*Enzo doing his AMAZING drum solo. ASTIG.

*SORT OF jamming (labo..^ ^ basta. we played the guitars.:p) between Me, King, Vince, Adi, Jobim, etc, and Akiko and Kaygee.Ü

*Some girls calling Bibo "Bading", then him answering back, "Bakit? Bakit? Bakit ako sumagot?" Haha!:))

The soiree was a success... Well, it should be because I helped plan it.:p Joke.^ ^ Maybe we'll have another soiree with their class. If ever, Hopefully, it will be better than the soiree we just had.Ü

Though I payed for most of what SHOULD have been payed for by the class, I was OK with that. IT was worth seeing the laughing, the teasing, the smiles of joy on each of the guy's and girl's faces. I didn't mind. Kahit ako pa nagbayad. If given the choice, I'd do it again.Ü Seeing people doing what I find hard to do, enjoying themselves, is very fulfilling to me. IT WAS WORTH IT.

So I'm here signing off with an empty wallet, a tired body, a stressed mind, but with a full heart and a contented soul.

GtG. Bye.:)

About Bands and soirees.Ü

2005-07-06T20:15:00.000-07:00

"A hundred days have made me older, since the last time that I saw your pretty face... A hundred laughs have made me colder, and I don't think that I'll look at this the same..."-3 Doors Down. It's one of my favorite songs.:D

Hmmm.. wonder why I haven't posted in a while? Well, the answer to that was that I was busy. Yeah. BUSY. The loads of homework, graded recitations and quizzes stopped me from giving you, my dear reader (lol) details on my life. Well, or what should be a life. (lol.:p) The hectic schedule annoys me...

A lot has transpired since I've last posted. Well. As in A WHOLE LOT. But I'm too lazy to give you the details..

Rainne and I are planning a soiree. It will be this coming saturday, in Village East near makro, in the clubhouse. The time is from 3-10pm. Bboys, BE THERE.:)) Her class is class 2-4 from Assumption Antipolo, AND I might play at the soiree. Sabi ni Sprix magaling daw ako, di naman gaano para sa akin... still good enough.:p But I'm thinking about it.

We're going to have another soiree, on the 22nd.:)

A few classmates and I are trying to start a band.:p All we need now is a rythmn guitarist, and [Obviously I can't sing.:))] a guy/girl on vocals. We've got a great drummer, a still-a-little-good-lead-guitarist (me), a possible rythmn guitarist na classmate, and a possible vocals na classmate or friends. Goodluck to us.:))

I'm usually bored SO I'm making custom picks.:P OUT OF CARDS. Funny what you can do when you're bored out of your mind, but busy as heck at the same time..

'BOUT SCHOOL... It's getting hard. Well, not really hard. HECTIC is the word. We have such a busy schedule and I've got non-supportive parents. Life's sweet. Life's just great. Haha. So many people to support me.:)) Just joking about one part here.:p

I'm going to post much much more the next time I get.:) Watching "One tree Hill".:p

LSS:Halaga-Huling El Bimbo-The day you said goodnight-Sulat
Dami diba? Madami pa nga talaga eh.:p

Missing someone... Badly.
Chatting with Sam and Lorainne.Ü
Ingat guys/girls.Pisawt:)

heart-warming and wishing.

2005-06-22T20:40:00.000-07:00

Interesting. I can't really find anything to post. My feelings? Hell no.:)
If I told you I'd have to kill myself.:p joke.

Gah. I feel sad. Yup. Thats it... But sad is just a word. If you feel sad at the momentt, it would be just a fraction of the agony my soul is feeling. BLEH. I'm being sentimental again..

Girl: Do I ever cross yourmind?
Boy: No

Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really

Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No

Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No

Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No

Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No way

Girl: What would you choose: your life..or me?
Boy: My life

The girl runs away in shock and pain and the boy runs after her and says...The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind. The reason why I don't like you is because I love you. The reason I don't want you is because I need you. The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I would die if youleft. The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you. The reason why I'm not willing to do you anything for you is because I would do everything for you. The reason I chose my life is because you ARE my life.

I'm sooooo.... missing aikido. Yeah.:) I need an outlet...
Peace-Out.

I miss living...

-ian-

Nothing.

2005-06-19T09:07:00.000-07:00

I'm depressed. I'm thinking that maybe I really don't have a purpose in this world.

That's just it. I wake up one morning finding myself in this world (though constantly reminded that I'm not "of" it) getting that sense of oneness with the worldly atmosphere and feeling to tempted so indulge with what it offers. When I dont even need it.

Ian, just WHAT are you getting at?!!

Nothing.

The word nothing I mean.

Nothing can mean everything.

Hearing nothing connotes a negative meaning in our sub-conscious thoughts. But I have thought about it lately and realized that I'm a Nobody.

Zip. mmhmmm. bap. zilch. nothing.

I've been dreaming lately. My hopes and dreams. Sadly reminiscing my un-redeemed life. I don't really feel safe though in announcing what my dream is. Let's just say, I was dreaming and hoping for a better life in the future.

So here I was doubting God's calling again for no good reason and come to think of it, I might be doing so in rebellion.

My thoughts zeroed in on one thing. . .

God, I could still be a christian and be _________________ . . .
I'm not quitting God, I'm just re-arranging my plans.

and it hit me

"Who do you think you are"
Who am I compared to God? Amen. I'm nothing.

I came back to my senses and realized I was in a state of emotional rebellion for no good reason.

Maybe I'm going make a new blog. A more serious one.

*Argh!* How F-ing stupid could parents get?!?!

An idiom meaning; to suffer un-requited love.

2005-06-19T09:03:00.000-07:00

Tasha and Cecille are great friends. Joe was Cecille's admirer, Tasha was Joe's "bridge". Or to say the least, Tasha didn't really like to be caught in the middle of a process where hearts were going to be broken.

You see, Joe would do almost anything and everything for Cecille. Cecille knew that all along, and she didn't like that. She basically used her good friend Tasha to be her "sheild". She just wanted out of this pesky guy's target.

So one day, Tasha mustered enough courage and just told Joe flat out "Cecille's not interested in you". Joe must have undergone a lot of courage-mustering as well as he answered, "I will not believe it 'til I hear it straight from Cecille's mouth"

"GULP!" Through Tasha's mind, scenes of previous "girl talks" played.

"That guy's a loser"

"He's soooooo. . ."

and so on. . .

Joe had to learn the hardway.

To cut the story, Joe was shot point-blank the next morning. The shooter has been identifed as Cecille, using a 3-inch, 6600, nokia germany, caliber phone.

Moody!? No... Depressed?! Somewhat. Nostalgic?! F up...:p

2005-06-13T14:00:00.000-07:00

Well… I’m here. *laughs* I’m not really supposed to be here… We were supposed to go to Tagaytay today, but I didn’t want to go… No reason. I just didn’t feel like it. Haha! I’m supposed happy right? Because there aren’t any classes… I’m not. I think I got up on the wrong side of the bed or something…

I COULDN'T Sleep last night. Again... So I played the guitar. My guitar. Sure. Whatever...Ü I played "Summer Romance"...:p Here's a test I took:

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more open with you.

With respect to money, you spend carefully and save your pennies.

You think good luck might come your way, but if it does you'll be so surprised you'll burst out laughing.

The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society.

You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked.

When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's" the True You?

I’m wearing a G3000 white shirt, a classic Levis fit pants, denim sneakers, an off-the-wall hat from duty free, and a Nike-band. Whatever. I’m just so… annoyed. We have so much homework to do. Well, not really that much but any of the 17 classmates I’ve asked and the 27 sites I’ve gone to don’t have the freakin’ answers to the science homework.. I guess I’ll have to try harder... *laughs*

I gave the OnL Album, well, sent it to Anne [www.thesocialanimal.blogspot.com] yesterday. *laughs* I even came with the house-help, Ate Weng. I asked her to give the Album, while I waited in front of the house, just a few feet away... We went there at around 6:19… Anne kung nababasa mo to, I don’t mind giving the Album, it was my pleasure. Really.Ü

Damnit! The aikido belt promotion is on Saturday… AND I haven’t memorized all the techniques YET… But I’m going to ask some friends to help me. *grins* thanx PiPoL!!!

Well, I’ve got to go now… Advanced study and projects/home works beckon…:p

movies...:p

2005-06-08T18:36:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the 7 people who've been texting me on my sun cellphone... king, vince, eliz, anne... etc. MY LOAD JUST EXPIRED TODAY. How annoying is that... Haha! freakin' cellphone. and sim. and world.:p

I just read Akiko's blog. *laughs* I'm also thinking of making a "secret" blog thing... Sure. TO put all my pain and sorrow in a blog no-one knows. NO-ONE. Whatever.:p I'm also PLANNING to make a blog to put all my amateur literary works. I'm only going to tell the addresses to my closest friends. To the people I can trust. Hopefully.

I'm going to watch "Mr. and Mrs. Smith" action and comedy movie. I'm watching with a couple of friends. A couple of FRIENDS. OR.. I could just watch with my uncle. Maybe I'll do that. Considering my mood.:)

Uhm, to the people who look at the pix, just put the mouse over them and a "description or whatever will appear.:D

ON OTHER STUFF:
This first day of classes has been great. BORING to some extent, but great...:)

*Argh* The AGS' dismissal tommorrow is 3:00pm crap. I might not be able to go to aikido practice... That sucks. Especially when the promotion to go to the next belt is next week... And I haven't memorized the techniques YET. But I'll try harder..:p

Biking in the rain. I did.:p

2005-06-05T18:30:00.000-07:00

I did'nt get to post this yesterday. *laughs* I didn’t change ANYHING ayt?:p ♪-sipol-♪

BTW, I broke my F doorknob. Haha. Cool. I had no idea I could do that… I also broke, well, nearly broke another door’s lock. *laughs* Oops.

I WANT TO PLAY DRUMS NOW!!! I need the freakin' NOISE.

SATURDAY:

Biking in the rain feels good. In a very strong rain. 30% visibility. 17% chance of slipping on the road. I’m not really allowed to go outside the subdivision but I did, I even nearly got hit twice by cars… I THINK. One was near the PLDT building. I stopped at around Unciano Medical Center… THEN turned back home. Nobody knows that. Until now anyway… On the way back, I slipped down the hill, a muddy hill and nearly slammed my head on the concrete. That’s why when I got home, my Aunt was wondering why my shirt was so muddy… *grins* I told her that I slipped on my bike in front of the house. Right. I’ve got bruises but I don’t mind.*laughs AGAIN* I’m going to try it out again sometime.Ü

That's right. I did. So what? Haha... Sana magka-pneumonia ako. Yun naman gusto ng mundo diba?! *laughs*

This day was pretty good. I woke up at 11. For me thats LATE. Crap. Everyday, at least everyday that I have classes, I wake up at 4:00 or 4:30... It felt weird somehow. Well, I really can't expect myself to wake up at an earlier time because I slept at around 4. I couldn't sleep AGAIN. *laughs* That's life.

Today, just before I went to Aikido, me 2nd string broke. That sucked. Anyway… I’m going to buy myself a new string and I’m saving up for another guitar. Yes. Another guitar. Since my guitar doesn’t have a freakin’ amp… What the F… It’s only about 8000 Php. I need about 2 months without eating. *grins*

Someone told me that I’ve been a zombie for a long time. So, I asked, “Define zombie…” So the person said,

Someone who finds it hard to sleep, finds it hard to eat, usually stares of into space, distracted nyhis thoughts, more or less a pessimist, usually in a slump, has only one sentence on his lips, “I want to, but I have no chance”, TRIES his best not show any emotion, and when the emotion is so strong, he converts that certain emotion into another, more unlikely one in order to hide that very emotion. May pagka-plastik...

Whatever. I just walked away.

WE actually didn’t have Aikido today. Master Copino wasn’t there. So what did we do during the 2 hours? We messed around… *laughs* We did. It was fun… It was ok… We divided ourselves into different groups, doing what we wanted to do to spend our time; Playing guitar, rolling, playing with the JO and/the Bokken, the Arnis [I think…:p], grappling[?!] and annoying people. It was fun… When our 2 hours were over, Jay and Lyman told us that they were planning to go to the ‘night’ session, but unfortunately we weren’t allowed… That SUCKED. *laughs* But I don’t really mind…:p

Summer’s ENDING way too soon… I don’t want it to end yet. Well, not really. I want to be busier… To have more to do.:p

END

I want to watch "Mr. and Mrs. Smith"... Cute. I like guns. But I like daggers better... somewhat. Actually I try to act tough. I just TRY.:))

Well, that’s it. *laughs* Nothing really happened today. Nothing exciting that is…:p Almost nothing. Just one last thing… CONGRATULATIONS to a couple there for their anniversary!!! *laughs* Ingat! *grins* 1 month na sila ngayon!!!

Ingat PiPoL…
iAn here signing off. *sips a cappuccino* really.:p

Life’s like that; it sucks. Sometimes I get tired of living. Oh… Look, daggers.

2005-06-01T23:32:00.000-07:00

That’s right. In our house I know where the decorative katanas, bolos, knives daggers and switchblades are. I’m not as nice as I look.Ü

Like my pic?;)

I just came from my Advanced Guitar and Drum lessons. It’s like jamming actually, though there are only 3 of us… *laughs* During my guitar lessons hour, kuya Francis [strumming] and I [lead] played the guitar while kuya Ernest played the Drums. We played “Play that funky music”. I played the lead for ‘cause it was easy. *laughs* The strumming part was harder… I think. During the drum lessons hour, I played the drums [of course!] while my 2 “teachers” played the guitars. That time we played “I’m Crazy for you”.*grins* Pumiyok si kuya Francis…*laughs* [♪♫♪]

Through-out the session I had fun. We were, well, very noisy. Here’s just one of the conversations we had… *laughs[again]* I’m blogging like a girl aren’t I?*does a mocking pout* LoL

ian: kung nakalabas ang ngipin ni kuya francis para siyang kuneho…*laughs*
francis: weh… si ernest yung mukhang kuneho eh. *laughs[rin]*
ernest: di kaya! ikaw yung mukhang kuneho eh… kunehong korteng pagong! Kunegong…*laughs the hardest*

I know it was kinda corny but what the hell. I wanted to have a good time. I wanted to forget. Did you know? I drink sherry/wine at least 3 times a day. Why? Take a guess. Sometimes I want to commit sucide. *laughs* I’m too much of a pessimist…

Here’s a flashback.*grins*

YESTERDAY:

I watched a little parade of “Flores de Mayo” in our subdivision… on my OLD bike. After that I exercised using the bike by circling the place [damn it was tiring] and going up uh… hills, going through rocky terrain… 5 times. *laughs* pathetic right?! Not really, I felt somewhat tired, NOT exhausted, I hardly get exhausted. Believe me. *laughs again*

Back to the present:

I gotta work-out again. Huh… I got to be in shape for Grappling tomorrow. I’m going to beat the freakin’ crap out of that big-headed blue-belt. Joke. It’s a game, nothing to be angry about. *grins* A rematch is what I need. I know it’s not good, but I’m still going to beat the freakin’ crap out of the guy…-_- JOKE LANG! wannabe tough lang ako. still, revenge. ;P

God. I’m in for another sleepless night. *laughs [AGAIN]* I’m an insomniac, so I usually sleep late at night but wake up early. Someone said I have too much on my mind. That I find it hard to concentrate on things. How sad is that? *LAUGHS* HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Ha.

I WANT TO GO TO SAISAKI AGAIN. The last time I’ve been there was 2 weeks ago. I’ve been there A LOT of time but I just love Japanese food.*BIG GRIN* Japanese buffets are my heaven. Well, it’s second to Bookstores. I’m a total nerd. *laughs* Still I’d settle for a cheap take-out from Tokyo-Tokyo…

LAST WORDS.:)
Jay, I already sent you the testimonial…

Anne, the Sun network’s really busted. Either that or my cell phone is…Ü

Tin, text me whenever there’s a gig somewhere, I’ll bring some friends over, you bring yours and we’ll have one hell of a big barkada.:p

Miggy, stop with the crappy “Ian loves to go out but has no-one to go out with.” line. Like I have a chance. Hahaha! How hopeless am I… *laughs*

I gotta go. Pis Awt.:)
影 -shadow

I'm having a hard time. Doing what? Living.

2005-05-30T18:15:00.000-07:00

*sighs* Dang I’m bored. I just came from Ateneo, ‘cause I got my books to be used this school year… I reached my school at around 10:40. There were loooooooooooooooooooong lines, and that annoyed me. It took me 40 minutes to get my books! *argh!* It was so frustrating, I’m a patient person but that kinda irritated me..:)

The other day, I went to a friend’s house… Well, her Mom’s clinic. Her Mom’s a Dentist, MY dentist. *laughs*, she’s gooooood loooooking. Ambait pa. *laughs again* Whatever… She likes a lot of bands, and loves going to gigs. ANYWAY, Wala.:p Sabi nya lang that if she knows some gigs, she’ll text me, para lang malaman ko… So I can tell some friends and we can come over.:) FUN… *LAUGHS* Labo. Ingat ka kung nababasa mo to Tin, ingat ka…:D

School’s nearing and I’m getting more bored. More and more and more.:p I’m nearly done writing a song {OPM-tagalog] and a poem, and a story…:p *laughs* I’m BORED!!!

Gimmick nanaman uliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii! Haha! Mamayamaya. Night gimmick… Whatever. I want to watch UNLEASHED! Haha! Maybe later.:p

Anne, I’m also writing a story!:) Like you are.:) Haha… I’ll let you read it when its finished.:p

Miggy, Kitakita tayo nila Gino at Joseph… Gimmick reunion.:))

Jay, dayaaaaaaaaaaaaa! Talo ako sa bet.:p

Chatting with Anne, Carme/l, Jay, and Julius.:)
I HAVE to GO.:)

This post is gonna be short, like my life. Maybe. Hopefully not...

2005-05-27T15:15:00.000-07:00

Alrighty. This post is just going to be short ayt? ‘Cause Im going to go Mall hopping again. Alone.:p Whatever. I’m just Going to say a few things… Haha!

The other day, well, yesterday, I went biking. While trying to freakin’ skid, the OLD mountain bike’s gears slipped. Now, I have a bloody long scratch… Right. It hurts, it stings a LOT but it doesn’t really bother me. I can ignore certain things like pain.:)

ALSOOOOOOOOO… Yesterday, I was bored, SO BORED that if I couldn’t find anything else to do aside from playing with Pretz and Oreo [dogs], I would kill someone.:p Not really. I was texting Anne when Miggy called. Now I’ve discovered I can text, talk, and play with the dog at the same time.:)) How’s that? Haha! I’ve got to go now… Well, not in a few more minutes.:)

I’m going to copy Anne/Karola. Haha! I’ve have NO sense of originality…:) I’m also going to make another blog where I’m going to post My short stories and poems.:p Gaya-gaya ako? Tell me on the tagboard.:D Okay, well not really, ‘cause I saw the idea on another blog.:) Sorry if I’m intruding or if my post annoys someone out there.:)

I MISS? wala...:)

GTG mallhopping! AND watching UNLEASHED and HOUSE OF WAX.. Take care guys!!
ian here signing off.:)

My body hurts. I feel pain. And strangely, I like it...

2005-05-24T19:57:00.001-07:00

If, for some reason I could kill myself and still go to Heaven, I would...

I WON! Haha! Yeah... In grappling.:p I beat 3 people straight. 3 people.:)) Tsamba ako... Haha! Lakas ko raw?!?!... Di ah. I just work out a "little".:) For some reason the people watching clapped.:)) Sabi ni sensei [teacher] o shihan [master] Copino isasali nya raw ako sa UFC...:)) LoL I really enjoyed my Aikido sessions today. I only usually take the morning session, because its as tiring as playing badminton for 4 hours... really. Today I wanted to beat my body up. So I took both the morning AND the afternoon session. I just feel bad, masakit. I felt pain during the afternoon session. Pain while rolling, the high-thrust, back rolling, slamming and grappling. Whatever. Who cares right?... :p

U'ng mga kasama ko kanina sa aikido ay sina, Kuya Edgar, Lolo Anthony, David, Jay, Verna, Willma[who looks like a Cathy.:D], Von, Earl, Jay, Lyman, DAGUL :)), SHAOLIN KID :)), my sis, and others.. Lalang.:)

Haha... Whatever... Huh. I'm excited to go to a friend's condo.:p Jamming until 5 in the morning, with incoming 4th year, and incoming 3rd year students.:) BUT you don't care right? What the hell. I'll post it anyway.:p Our plan is to meet in McDo muna, then go straight to the guy's house where we'll play guitar and piss the neighbor's off with the drums... kung madadala.:p IF not di the Box nalang...:p

Gago si Miggy.. nilagay sa testi ko, "Ian likes to go out, but has no one to go out with." :)) WHATEVER. Haha! Still obnoxious miggy. Still the same you.:p My annoying violin playing little mouse-friend.:D hehe...
I don't have any loadddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd!!! sa BOTH SUN AND GLOBE FONES.:) Hingi ng load migss...

Last STUFF...:p
Lakas ko ba?! Haha! O'ba?! :D JOKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)

bye... i gotta, gotta, pump iron.:) and call miggy, my psychiatrist.:)) AND not eat again..:p Chatting with JAY,JULIUS & ELIZ and having a great time..:))
GTG.:)

[Just a fact... pinsan pala ni Julius si Iggy(the girl in my links section)... at si Jake pinsan nya rin pala... Lalang, small world.:)]

I miss someone so badly... I'm so pathetic...:)

Angry at the world and myself at the same time.

2005-05-23T22:00:00.000-07:00

Maybe the f-ing horoscope in Inquirer was right. Not that I care.:)

Life really sucks. MY life really sucks. Haha! Maybe it's just a spell. Whatever.
I gave, "kuya" Ernest [drummer], Don [lead(DAMN good) guitarist], Francis [bass] and etc. my number. It's because they're going to tell me when they're going perform in a gig. They said I can go into their gigs for free. Well. Most of the time.:p And whenever they have a jamming session with other bands o kahit sila sila lang, I can join in. Actually, I can bring some friends with me... Kung may gusto. pero wala naman ata... Haha!..

I'm green... Lalang. I feel sick. Inside. Masakit ata.:)

On aikido... I can somersault already.:p Left and right. Haha! Aikido's fun, especially the rolls. The back rolls, and front rolls and the grappling.-it's like wrestling but you can't slam them on the mat.:p I even remember whne I was feeling a bit groggy/sleepy, and when I rolled I hit the wall.:)) They all laughed at me but I still smiled ha. I'm a sport.:D

I'm just sooooooooooooo... pissed at someone. That's why I won't accept the calls. Haha. Ha. Funny.-_-

Anne I CAN scale. But I might not be up for being a lead guitarist.:( I don't think I'm good enough... Galing nio lahat eh. I'm good, but not that good. I haven't really played with a band yet. Just with a drummer.:) Just with a very good a drummer...:p

Haha... I'm talking to Miggy. AS IN RIGHT NOW.:)) we're talking about nothing which usually turns up into nothing. Oh. By the way, MIGS, thanks for aking Lian, Dina and the others to add me ha.:)

I'm going to sleep at 3 again and wake-up at 6-8 for no reason. I feel like I could commit suicide if I don't beat my body up. BTW, I'm not eating much anymore. La akong gana. Haha! Kakatawa no?...

I'm going to sleep-over with a couple of friends in another friends condo. Jamming. Whatever. Friday to Saturday.:)

WAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLAAAAAA ako'ng magawa... I'm going to watch stars. And light a candle. and pray. A LOT. Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha... Like I have a chance to get what I pray for.:p

P.S. BTW, yung manggugulo pa, harapin nyo ako. I can break either your wrists, shoulderblades, fingers and a lot more.>:D Try me. Especially don't piss my friends off... I might do something nasty to you.:) I am fiercely loyal to m friends. OK?!?!:)

I'm just pissed at the world. And at myself at the same time. Again. Like sucks. Thank God for friends.:)

I've stopped believing in miracles...:(

2005-05-22T14:40:00.000-07:00

I did'nt get to blog yesterday. I hated that.:)

Sa mga tao dyan na nanggugulo, wag niyo na i-diin. Yaku ni tata nai... You won't like me when I'm angry.:) Anyway, summer's ending wayyyyyy... too soon. It is getting a bit boring, but I don't want summer to end too quickly.:)

I went to BigR the other day. Instead of going to Eastwood. ENIWEYSH, I got to buy a Bench stretch black shirt and Dickies pants. I WANTED to buy a denim jacket, but they did'nt have the neck design I wanted.::(( That sucked. I wanted to buy a denim jacket so that I could go TOTALLY denim... denim jacket, jeans, and denim sneaks. Cool! Haha... :)

WHILE in the BigR I went to Starbucks. Ahhh... The soothing power of a hot steaming BIG cup of marshmallow mocha.:) I got to go there after eating at Max's restaurant.:D

I'm broke once more.:(( Broke, but content.:p

I miss school. I MISS Ateneo! The muttering before waking up at 4 in the morning, the warm protein meals, the morning exercises and the leaving for school at around 5:00 or 5:15... The Jamming with my classmates during break, the shouting of the teachers telling us to lower the volumes of our guitars and angelic[LoL] voices, and most especially the running for 3.5 kilometers during PE.:)) We'd be wasted, but no matter how tired we were, we'd still play basketball after running.:)

I get little injuries from aikido, but it's ok. Last session, I did a closed fist rolling, I hit my head on the mirror, on the wall. And now my arm's still sore from the loss in grappling yesterday. My FIRST loss out of 2 WINS.:) I've got such a big head right now... Haha! Though I got sore Left arm, my pride was unscathed. The guy's at least 25 or 30. So, it's okay that I lost. I still had fun anyway.:)

AMERICAN IDOL: Haha. I watch the show.:) And I'm a BO Bice FAN and always has been dati pa. Just a thought.:)

SA LAHAT NG NAKAKABASA NITO, ANSWER THE HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ME QUIZ. The link somewhere on the left side of this page. Thank you! Arigato Gozaimas! Salamat!:)

I gtg. I'm going out again. To where? Make a guess.:)

hayyy... short.

2005-05-21T19:15:00.000-07:00

I lost. Daya... ANG LAKAS ni kuya EDGAR. I was wasted!!! PARANG nabali nga arm ko eh... sa Grappling... My first LOSS. still. I LOVE GRAPPLING!!! YEAH!

I'm annoyed/angry/ticked/pissed at someone...

WHATEVER. Ang ikli ng post na to... wala nang time eh..:p
I'm happy.:)

Chatting with anne...:p
gtg. VYE.:)

RED?! Me?! C'mon. Yeah right...:p

2005-05-19T11:14:00.000-07:00

Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
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Yeah right. C'mon? AKO?!?... Damnit. 've taken this test 3 times ganun pa rin.:))

At the moment, I'm just watching Tv. Bd3p kasi ako eh.

Mamaya sa aikido we're going to do something different.:p If you make a mistake during the rolling and grabbing the arnis/gun you'll have a choice. Either sasayaw, kakanta o palo ng arnis. Ako? Mamaya? Kakanta nalang ako.:))

C JAY NATALO sa bet namin! In the American Idol Bet. Pinili nya c Anthony. I picked Bo bice! YEAH!!! Rockerrrrrr... TALO c Anthony. NOW... The bet goes like this. If the contestant you pick loses first, you have to kiss the aikido mat na may PAWIS. The power or sweet and salty. KADIRI!!!:))

BO rocks!!!

Imma go now. Pinapaalis na ako eh.:)

candlelit shadows...

2005-05-16T20:44:00.000-07:00

I'm booooooooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeddddddd....
I said it. I AM. Well. Not as much as before... still I get bored. I get bored playing with the puppy, I get bored playing the stupid game from california [my aunt sent it], re-reading my books, watching tv, gimmicking, doing chores, drawing, singing, painting, playing the guitar, drums, annoying my sister...

Again, I'm not really in the mood to blog.

I want to go swimming! Kahit dyan lang sa Gems... anywhere. The best place t go swimming for me is Club Manila East. After playing golf, you can go straight to swimming, kayaking, jogging around or eating in their restaurant.:)

Anne, miss rin kita.:p Sorry about not replying sooner. I just have a big problem of being busy and misplacing my fone.

Miggy, Goodluck sa braces!!!

Hahy. God. I'm really bored.

Imma gonna draw and finish reading the books I just bought.:)

The ability to deceive others is perfected through a lot of practice on myself.:(

2005-05-15T21:41:00.000-07:00

How sad is that?… A life of sarcastic smiles and fake hellos.

[I’m currently listening to my almost full Mp3 of incubus-linkin park-maroon 5]

I got that smiles and hellos thing from Cessa’s blog. Haha… Like the title? Whatever.

The other day I went to Eastwood. For what? Nothing… I just wanted to wander around. I had a little snack at Starbucks, bought a book, stood around, watched a movie and others. You know. Stuff.:) There was even this guy, around my age, who bumped into me and made the mistake of cursing me and pissing m off. I scared him, and told him to go out into the world and make children. Not in those words of course.:)) After scaring the guy off I met old classmates, and friends. And we traversed the concrete forest of Eastwood until 1:00 am! I’m planning on doing it again sometime.:)

YESTERDAY I was up all night err… texting and calling, and talking, and laughing and annoying. Haha! During that tym I learned I couldn’t join them kasi of course… I was at home… nangiinggit pa sila! Daya They tried to annoy me. TRIED.:)) They even brought good news! Miggy had braces… [“Ian, I’ve got braces! We’ve got something in common? Nast(y)!”] Miggy mouse. Hehe… Rehg also called. May kinwento ako sa kanya at inasar ako nilang magpipinsan.,,:)) [“Uy kilig! Uy kinikilig!”] Puede daw maging teleserye ang buhay ko. DAW. I fell asleep with the fone still on. It’s a good thing our househelp turned it off about 2 hours later. [5:00 am]

Ei… I got new webcam pics at friendster.:p Share.

I found out something this morning. My Dad’s a Born-again Christian. Haha… I’ve always thought he was a Roman Catholic like me. I never imagined…:) I’m not angry. I don’t have anything bad against the religion. Just mildly surprised.:p

P.S.
Miggy remind mo kay Natalianne a.k.a. Lian na i-add ako sa friendster... . and oh, I’ll text you or err… call.:)

Mahirap mag-mahal ng lihim.-From the status of Cessa. Again. Wala lang…

bored.:)

2005-05-13T14:20:00.000-07:00

I took this test.:p wala lang... I was bored! ill just post some stuff... 'cause i don't really feel like posting..:)

Ian, your Emotional IQ is 132.

This number is the result of a formula based on how many questions you answered correctly on Tickle's Emotional IQ test. But your Emotional IQ score is much more than just a number: it's an indicator of success. Research has shown that people with high emotional intelligence scores — not necessarily those with the highest IQ scores — tend to be the most valued and productive employees and have the longest and happiest romantic relationships. So, where are you most emotionally smart? Your test results show that your strongest suit is empathy — your ability to see things from someone else's point of view.

[the song "you and me is stuck in MY head!!! haha!]

gtg. imma go mallhopping.. .eastwood, mega, galle... etc.:p tc guys!!!

VyE...:))

The stupider people think you are, the more surprised they’ll be when you kill them.:)) Joke lang ha?!

2005-05-10T23:26:00.000-07:00

I’m going to the drum and advanced [yeah! advanced!!!] guitar lessons later. Excited ba ako? Oo naman!
-I can't find anything to post about.-

Flashback: Woosh! Hehe…

Yesterday I enrolled in the ADMU. I finished the enrollment process quickly pero ang tagal ng sundo. Rawr.:p Soo… nag hintay lang ako sa Mcdo.;) While waiting in Mcdo, I texted Karola. Lalang.:D

After going to AHS we went to Eastwood. Call me an Eastwood boy.:)) I just looked around, bought some books [Dragon Masters and The Sitter (R.L. Stein)], ate some, met some, etc.;)
(We were supposed to watch a movie but we did’nt have much time eH.:p )

END of FLASHBACK: Bilis no?!

Kaya ko na yung lead ng “Bakit ba”. It’s a very easy lead. STILL it sounds cute.:)) Makes you think. SORTA. I need a pick… Yung magandang 25 Php lang.:P Pero wala akong oras para bumili eh…:(

[“Bakit, bakit ba, ako’y ngayo’y nag-iisa. Bakit, bakit, bakit ba… Ako’y ngayo’y mahal mo ba, ayokong ma-sorpresa bakit ba…”] ----yan ata yung lyrics… not sure.:)

OTHER STUFFZ:

I like singing! Haha! Labo no? Just to myself.:)

May 2 tao dya’ng hindi namasnin sa AHS kahapon.:)) Joke lang.:)

I’M SAVING UP FOR ANOTHER Electric Guitar. Starting at about 100 Php.:(( I’m Broke. It’s because I used most of it up already.:)

ISA PAh:

PEOPLE attention! Haha!:p May mga nilagay ako’ng bagong pic sa friendster pix ko. Wala lang… SHARE.:)

I'm just here pondering the inconceivable monotony of my life.:)

2005-05-09T21:25:00.000-07:00

I took the music lessons around3-5 in the afternoon. Hahahahahahahaha... It was cool.:) The drum teacher was good. And if music was a religion, the guitar player is a GOD. damn! The guy was good. And he has a band! Rock on kuya Don![woah, it ryhmes..]:p Sabi nya raw na ako raw one of his best sudents! haha... RIGHT. kse 2 kaming naka-advanced guitar lead lessons, technique lang naman daw, kse maraming marami na akong alam.:) [ang yabang ko langya!] The other guy is 17.;)

I bought a pair of drumsticks, 510 Php! WHAAAAT!? For a pair of friggin sticks you pay 510. Labo.:) Then there was this hot -Monochrome Black Guitar- On display. I'm saving up for it.:) But I want an Ibanez. The BEST brand...

Haha.. gtg..

Light a candle and look at stars.:)

VALENTINES is a cruel holiday in which people pour lemon juice on the thin paper hearts of the unattached.:)

2005-05-08T19:31:00.000-07:00

It’s Mother’s Day! Haha! Not Valentines! Nice...

The best gift I could give my Mom for Mother’s Day or any other day for that matter is for me to have a girlfriend. W.T.F.! HECK NO. So I just considered some alternatives...:) This day’s been pretty normal.

We went to (The Divine Master) this morning. Duh. First let me explain what the TDM is. It’s a small mini-Church/Chapel run by nuns. I think, but a Priest still holds masses… They have this huge garden with a variety of plants and a 9 ft. [ata!:p] tall statue of Jesus Christ. Before, when I was a kid, while my parents were having mass, I would play with the other little kids in the huge garden. Those were the days… I wanna be a kid again!:) Not that I’m that old. I just love the place. It’s not that crowded, and it’s serene.:)

Socrates: to be is to do.
Aristotle: to do is to be.
Frank Sinatra: do be do be doo..:))

***************
I think I sprained my arm, my right arm, ‘cause I lifted weights too much and it feels f-ing sore! Motivation. Haha. Yeah. I did 326 pumps on my left arm and about 450 on the right in about an hour and a half.:)) That’s why I think I sprained my arm… but I’ll still pump! I pushed myself too much. I’m trying to push myself to the limit… I’ve jogged, shoveled, lifted, swam, fasted, and much, much more. Whatever. I’ll stop. To sacrifice something for one thing; it seems kinda stupid but to me it makes a lot of sense… What kind of person am I. Damn, the only language I speak is Loser… Joke.:)
***************

I HAVE LOAD NA!!!

Time to light a candle and watch stars again.:)

Heck is where people go when they dont believe in Gosh.:))

2005-05-08T01:00:00.000-07:00

I know how to play the drums already but I'll take lessons to improve them.;)

By the way... I exchanged my sneakers for another pair. The first pair sucked like ****. I bought denim sneakers. They cost me 2963.75 Php... Crap. I'm sooooo broke.But All i need now is a Denim jacket and ill go totally all denim!!!:)) No really I'm going to save up for a denim jacket.:p I have 3 bandannas. They're very useful in this heat. A blue-black one, an orange-black, and a black and white... Hmmm... Angas!!!:))

I just noticed a while ago that the lead guitarist of Mayonnaise had a red guitar. It looks exactly like mine. What a coincidence.:))

HEY ELIZ... I can't reply to your messages ok? ON my sun fone i mean...:) k? tc.:D

Just for some reason I'm happy. Haha! I've been singing to myself all day... Totoy diba? I'm just giddy. Kinda Ecstatic.. But when I'm happy I don't let people notice it. I just smile a little. Haha... and I put it here. At kapag ako'y bad3p lagi akong nakangiti...:)
-["'cause its you and me.."]-
I hate light weights, I can beat up or scare an asshole way bigger than me, I'm kinda good at arnis, and I know how to use a katana be it wooden or real, like the one I have here at home..:p Wala lang.. Share...:)

"Ang puso, parang bote. Kapag nabasag mahirap na muling mabuo. Ngunit tandaan mo, mabasag man ang puso mo, may isang taong handang masugatan sa basag na piraso, upang buuin muli ito." -Hahaha...

Btw. If you want something badly or just want to thank God or sumthin', do what I do when I'm bd3p. Light a candle outside. I just did.

Imma gonna go look at stars now...:)

Who's idea of a sick joke was it to put an "s" in the word lisp?:)) Bwiset no?!

2005-05-04T16:43:00.000-07:00

I'm bored. Duh. As Usual...:p

All I do is act on my passions and they call it sin. All I do is tell the truth and they call me a hypocrite. All feel is pain and sorrow and they call it love. All I do is pour my heart out to empty pages and they call it poetry.-guess who? sino pa?!

JUST THOUGHTS TO START THE POST...

There is dignity in not giving up on someone you truly love but there is more dignity in letting them go so they can experience better love.That shows your true love because you then become unselfish and through putting others first, unconditional love grows.

There is respect in fighting gallantly to win someone's heart another time but an even greater respect comes from fighting hard and knowing when to stop.Even though you would give anything to have the past back, that person has touched your life in a way that will make your future so much brighter.

Accept that, and hold your head high knowing you have captured their heart as well.There is courage in allowing your heart to hurt and grieve but there is greater courage in knowing it will be scarred but stronger as time goes on.For whoever caused those scars has made your life better in some way and it will make you a better person.

Losing the person who meant the most in your life is a humbling experience yet it is even more humbling if you allow it to ruin your life and forsake all you have been blessed with when you feel like you have lost your world.

Remember how many people depend on you and who you are to the world.There is fortitude in holding on for another chance although an even greater fortitude comes from extending your hand and heart in friendship realizing you will still share things with that person no one else ever will.

You will always have the looks and jokes and memories.Don't ever discount how special those things arein your heart and theirs.True love hurts when it is lost, but an even greater love grows inside you through realization that something better is in the world for both of you.

And that there are still things to share with that person even though some feelings may have changed.Take their hand and help them achieve their hopes and dreams because in that there is dignity, respect, courage, humility, fortitude and the unconditional love that will continue to grow in both of your hearts

THE END! haha! :p

God. Na-to-torpe ako. :)) Wala lang. I'm going to take drums this summer and maybe advanced guitar lessons... its gonna be busy! Yeah...

Before i connected to the internet Rehg called. My persistent caring friend. :)) Pinakanta nga ako eh... She said my voice was OK. I thought otherwise...:p I'm still currently lifting light 10 lbs. weights. haha... The stupid as*** said i have to start light. Yet. Yet. Yet! I can lift yung mga 20 lbs. na... humph. leche...

I'm going on a diet. Don't laugh! haha! wala lang, I'ts not really a diet. But I already workout everyday... im just going to cut down what i eat. Period.:)

I have 2 fones. Haha! share..:p

An Ending line by me. :)) "Define love. Admiration, Infatuation, and Excitement can be mistaken for love. Am I inlove? Maybe."

Sometimes we put up walls, not to block people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down...:p

2005-05-02T19:50:00.000-07:00

dont mind the title again..:p btw. i did...:)

yesterday i bought stuff. yeah. stuff. :p haha... its a 3 day sale in Mega mall, and i was there for the whole day. lakwatsa.. haha! now im broke. i mean really broke. inubos ko na. im out of money with a bit more stuff than before.:)) i even bought a new pack of cards. bicycle yan! orig...:) mababaw lang ako...:))

im dead inside daw. im not. maybe a little broken.:) nothing a little tape could fix... i guess.

both my arms hurt from lifting weights. wla lang... 10 lbs! yeba![wat da..]:p

im dejected, disappointed, deflated, down, depressed, sad, disconsolate, low, disheartened, glum, despondent, low, miserable.. etc. haha! yeah. me. right.:))

HERE are some thoughts...

The major difference between hating and loving perhaps that is whereas to love somebody is to be fulfilled and enriched by the experience, to hate somebody is to be diminished and drained by it. Lovers, by losing themselves in their loving, find themselves, become themselves. Haters simply lose themselves. Theirs is the ultimate "consuming" passion.

It's amazing when you can stand in front of tremendous crowds, without nervousness or fear of error, and say the perfect words, act the perfect way. And the face and sound of one special someone, can leave you at a lost for words...that is love...

END OF thoughts..:p

anne, king, vince, rehg, etc... SORRY GUYS SA MAY SUNCEL KO. F-ING... BASTA. MAY PROBLEM. haha..... crap.:p

"I don't have a girlfriend, I just know someone who would be really mad if they heard me say that." HAHAHAHA!!! JOKE! THATS WHAT OTHER GUYS SHOULD SAY...

I'm an angel! honest! The horns are just there to hold up the halo. haha! joke! :))

2005-04-30T01:55:00.000-07:00

dont mind the title! :)) hehe...

malay ko ba.. i was melting a few hours ago. god. :p soooo.... i went to mega mall. huh. just to cool off. im a complicated person. sorry po! :)) maarte ako.. ^-^

i was going to buy a lotta stuff. 3 day sale ngayon eh. but i thought. what the hell. cno naman bibigyan ko. wala db?! :)) bibili ako ng sneakers. wla lang...

i went to starbucks again. wla lang...

i know its late but im going to stare at the stars. crap. pathetic diba? sad. :)) it helps me think.

cave canum. :))

2005-04-28T17:45:00.000-07:00

The latin words on the title mean: "who let the dogs out!?" haha! wla lang... :p

my sensei[teacher] a.k.a. aikido "master" went to our house a short while ago... nothin serious.. KASE.. it's like this.. like us he takes care of dogs. he has a labrador, a doberman, and a boxer[i think]... he was checking out my/////our dogs. 3 labradors... haha! share...:))

yesterday rehg called.. haha... on the fone for 2 hours.. tagaaaaaaaal.. pero masayang kausap.. AT ang cute ng 2 year old nyang pinsan.. :p pinakanta pa nga ako eh! :)) hinarana ko thru fone.. haha! ng 214. LoL.. ---i just came from the fone talking to her. kanina lang. well. ngaun lang. haha! kuya na ngayon tawag sa akin... tumanda na ako!!! :))

anne... yung c long-name halos ka-pangalan ko. :p nakilala ko thru a friend of mine... haha! d violin player... ^_^ natalianne

crap. my neck is soooooooooooooooo.... sore. i pulled a muscle in technique number 15. naalala ko pa.. :)) shaiza...:)

imma gonna try to buy some SUN load. haha. leche'ng fone yan.:p another problem is the fact that there is hardly a signal for sun at home. carp. leche leche leche... :p haha! gtg...

*ian has left the building*

whatever things.

2005-04-22T16:00:00.000-07:00

"We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion ismagnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, an hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that wetreasure for the rest of our lives."
-haha! wla lang. nakaka-aliw.:)

im bored. im going to Eastwood later. Ive been planning for the last 2 days... haha! damn. i just hope it wont get canceled beacause a "friend" from laguna will come to our house later.. ;P

more bad than good. :)

2005-04-19T15:31:00.000-07:00

huh. andaming mga taong 2migil sa blogging. crap. sooo... di na rin ako gaanong magb-blog. yeah. whatever.:)

sorry sa lahat ng mga ka-sun.. matagal na maka-send at maka recieve ng msgs ang SUN ko. maulan kasi eh. joke lang..:)) bastah. sorry kay alex[andra], anne, king, vince, etc.. basta. sorry kung napaka l8 ko mag reply.

SHOMEN! haha! ang saya ng aikido. im getting addicted. nakakaADIK! i beat a 30+ year-old man in grappling. whooooohooo! lalang.. kaka-aliw. :p after this i might take up drums. pag di na ako tamad.:))

i met my "dream-sister" or SOMETHING. basta. we have the same dreams. almost. great minds think alike. haha! nakilala ko cya through MIGGY MOUSE. haha! joke pre'. peace. ^_^

[a hundred days have made me colder.. since the last time that i saw your pretty face...]
literally. miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiissssssssssssssssssssssss kooooooooooooo naaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... :p
ang taong kilala kong mahaba ang pangalan. ;p

labo...:))

*ian has LEFT the building.*

eye opener? :)

2005-04-13T22:30:00.000-07:00

Ugh. I had a bad night's sleep. I slept at around 4. Crap. I was lying in bed for 5 hours! I listened to Jam 88.3 for that long. Haha! Yeah.. While listening to the radio, I tried to do some aikido exercises. Nagawa ko ang positon 1 hanggang 4. Anlabo pag walang sparring partner... but i got through...

NICE IBANEZ GUITARS! akin yung una.. 44k.
-grx 40-
-gsa 370qm-

I wan't to beat somebody up! haha! Maybe it's a phase or something. OR.. maybe it's the COFFEE. Caffeine makes you think/do stuff.. BUT I love coffee! haha! The Caramel Macchiato, Vanilla Frappuchino, [hot] Mocha -shot-, and the like... I'm addicted. ;p [BUT I also love NACHOS. NACHOOOOOSSSSssSSssSSssSS!]

DID YOU KNOW?! I draw. haha! lalang.. Hey! Isa pa.. I like wearing long sleeved shirts. Not the Polos.;p

I'm going to buy the rest of the freakin' Rivermaya CDs and A.k.A. IV.[almost kinda acoustic] HaHaHa! right... pti sugarfree, M.Y.M.P, Hoobastank[kung meron!:)], Maroon %, Coldplay[yung mga wla ako.], AND Incubus, U2, Mojofly, etc.. WHATEVER.

I'm done writing my story. NOT MY story. A story. huh. Scary. sana... its titled -"Wall Color"-

gtg.:p i GottA go eat some *Ruffles and Lays.* while looking at the F-ing star studded sky. haha! it helps when you feel down no? pti pag- galit. or worried. o pag wlang magawa.. o pag naaalala si 5527776665552 o si 222443377775544433. ^_^

DONT MIND THIS PART. EXCEPT YOU CARLOS!
~~Your a freakin' asshole! you're not a person. you're a freakin' crowd!!!~~ ~~yeah you tubby! you're that FAT!~~

~~to the normal people.. gtg. peace out. ^_^~~

i dont believe. i dont care!

2005-04-12T20:32:00.000-07:00

i read "The Brethren" this morning. John Grisham yan.. haha. tapos na. started 8am, finished 9:10am. lalang...

i took 1 aikido session a short while ago, and i actually had fun! :) yeah. 1st, i arrived 30 minutes early, alked to some new students... then i did OK on the rolls, exercises, the practices, partner to partner sparring, and i got my uniform. i even found out out that one of the new members of our dojo was a muslim. rock on! (';')\m/ haha! domo arigato gozaimas shikio[?!] Copino!:p *then you have to take a bow.. hehe..*

im not going to sleep late anymore. huh. well. actually. i go to bed at around 11pm-3am. usually. but i fall asleep about 2 hours later. a lot of thoughts keep bouncing around my head. must be the cofee. so im going to bed at around 9.

im thinking of selling. something. it costed 44,000 pesos when it was brand new. maybe it would sell for 30,000. haha! but im still thinking...

i painted. once. but no one knows that. but i dont anymore. there's just no freakin' privacy. ugh. stupid house. :)

IT just make sme sick. IT is simply a concept to ensure the continuation of the species. it is an illusion, a mirage. IT is all around; causing havoc, chaos, inspiring people, depressing some, and even bringing a new light into other's perspectives. IT makes people do what even they expect.. haha! yeah right. -_-

anti ako. hindi pro ha!!!

im going to hang around our tree house all day tommorrow. its not the sucky tree houses. the common ones. it has a narra polish, abaka roof, the works [pillows!!! haha! puzzle mats..]. it even has blinds. haha! lalang. ill bring EVERYTHING I NEED. EVEN COFFEE...

ILL TRY TO PAINT THERE... and other stuffs. gtg... ^_~

isa pa[h]! :p

2005-04-11T20:20:00.000-07:00

At your ten year high school reunion... by robbiewriter
Your school name
Your name
Your job will be	Trashman
You will be worth	$792,851
Everyone will think you	are really hot

Quiz created with MemeGen!

huh? trash man?! wtf?!? hahaha!

gtg. :p

-ian-

yeah right.

2005-04-11T19:00:00.000-07:00

Are you hott? by evildj23
First Name
Age
Guy or Gal
Your hottness is	10...WOW! ARE U SINGLE?!?!

Quiz created with MemeGen!

hahahahaha! yeah right. GEE, ano kaya gagawin ko ngayong hapon?! probably nothin. tv lang...

YESTERDAY: naka-chat ko si ate K! haha! pti nga ngayon eh. ka-chat ko parin.. with cam and mic. lalang.. nakita ko rin cla Aye and co. si RB wla nasa kabilang bahay. si kuya anton naman nasa party. :p haha! rock on MOX/'te K/bubbles/isha/KRiZiA/kraizee![patawa nga eh.. mukhang fishDA.. hehe.]

aha.. haha.. i gotta practice stuff. stupid aikido. -_- kupal. feeling ko nasa yoga ako or sumthin...

[whooosh. i am the wind. i am the brother to the puma.-hehe.]

yesterday.. i went tripping with my cousin's. haha. joke! sa bahay lang nila dyan sa may pines.. err.. 2nd cousins pla. they had a cocker spaniel. pangalan "Gelo". haha! kapangalan yung bading sa 1-I..

anywayz gtg.

huh.

2005-04-10T16:18:00.000-07:00

im pissed. very pissed.

wla. kasi hindi cnabi sa akin eh. ouch. HINDI CNABI.

thanx a lot.

-ian-

tests na nakuha sa blog ni anne/memegen.net :)

2005-04-09T23:00:00.000-07:00

Your love is... by ChibiMarronchan
Your name is...
Your kiss is...	mysterious
Your hugs are...	gentle
Your eyes...	light up a day
Your touch is...	heart warming
Your smell is...	exotic
Your smile is...	encouraging
Your love is...	one of a kind

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Your True Nature by llScorpiusll
Username
The quality that most appeals to you:	Strength
In a survival situation, you:	Fight, but reluctantly
Your hidden talent is:	A beautiful mind
Your gift is:	A loving heart
In groups, you:	Work for a common goal
Your best quality is:	Your protectiveness
Your weakness is:	Being predictable

Quiz created with MemeGen!

A feel good quiz by cerulean_dreams
your name is...
your eyes	are two drowning pools
your hair	radiates beauty
your smile	draws others towards you
your body	is elegant and stunning
your hugs	are warm and fuzzy
your kiss	is mysterious
your love	is forever

Quiz created with MemeGen!

i did'nt get to buy ANYTHING. daym! ahahaha... crap. hehe. nagstarbux naman kme eh. good enough. ^_~

sorry kung malabo yung itsura.. gtg... :)

going out.

2005-04-09T14:00:00.000-07:00

ill be going to megamall l8er... wont tell you guys the reason why. haha! whatever. i mean im going now! im just sneaking in a post. :)

yesterday i helped in the landscaping of our front yard. well.. yeah. i used the huge pick, then after that the wheelbarrow, the the spade. haha! 4 2 hours and a half... kasi we're going to buy a few square feet of bermuda grass 'cause the grass was looking dirty, so we decided to change it. MAARTE ANG PAMILYA KO. believe me.

LAST NIGHT i sat on our roof looking at the stars. it was a pretty clear AND cold night. haha.

cessa did'nt remember me! haha! right. :p rainne dont forget the event in june. sasabihin ko sa mga classmates ko..

im going to a mall with 1100 Php in my wallet, guess what im going to buy.. huh-uh.. ^_^

well.. gtg. we're using the pajero. that sucks. mas gusto ko yung estima... ANYWAY.
gtg.

-ian-

short; black and blue. misunderstandings. and finally-heeee yah!:p

2005-04-07T18:50:00.000-07:00

i woke up this morning feeling great. haha! yeah! great. pero naasar rin kasi wala kong load sa globe fone ko. kaya di ako makareply at maka-greet sa friend ko. at sa ibang pang nagttxt..

THIS MORNING when i went to the dining table, the radio was on and it started playing "you'll be safe here" by Rivermaya. freaky. but it felt good. but weird. haha. i like that song... [put your heart, in my hand, you'll be safe here..]

oargh... i felt ok naman. the black and blue part i was just, let me say, exaggerating... haha! i took aikido-jiu jitsu in the dojo in front of Ynares center. small, quaint, yet endearing in its own way... the dojo master had a .28 pistol. i think. i know what it looks like. but im not sure it's what i say. huh...

anne, wla yun. its an you-have-to-be-there-situation, concerning a few people. us.:p dont mind it. bite me. kung malabo... talagang kami kami un. its a thing.:))

i can do a lot of things during my first session. huh. i can do rolls. basic defense...^_^
i made a few new friends. in the dojo. verna, patrick[ibang patrick!], von, etc. nakalimutan ko na yung iba eh! :)

si ojo nadapa! kasi naka "japanese elephant pants" kasi eh. haha! huh.:)
this sucks. gtg.:)

HAPPY BDAY NGA PALA KAY
MARIAN/ALYSSA/YUMI
and whatever nickie you have.. haha! have a nice bday.. ingats.:)
[advance bday rin kay king.. sa 8...]

peace out. im going on a gimmick tommorrow. whatever...

bladeyumi13: "hirap pag friend mo crush mo. di mo alam kung paano itago. ddma pag nangungulit, lalang pag lumalapit, pero pag nllmbng minsan gsto mong sabihin; TAMA na! puede ba?.. --->>> wla lang. ka-chat ko cya nang cnabi nya to. feel ko psychiatrist ako ng ILANG tao DYAN di ba!? haha! wag umangal blog ko to. ;p

[the only thing wrong is to deny what your heart truly thinks.]
-i think im not going to heaven. hope not. im still trying!!!:p

peace out uli!:)

wherever you will go.

2005-04-06T22:45:00.000-07:00

nah. im just not in the mood. im annoyed. my mom signed me up for an aikido class... haha. but that isnt the reason... nevermind. oonga pla. i noticed lagi akoi nagkakamali sa grammar sa ilang post at poems ko. haha. un lang... im black. i feel black. :p

[this song got stuck in my head]

WHEREVER YOU WILL GO...
~the calling

So lately, been wondering,
Who will be there to take my place
When I'm gone, you'll need love
To light the shadows on your face
If a great wave shall fallIt would fall upon us all
and between the sand and stone
Could you make it on your own

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

And maybe, I'll find out
The way to make it back someday
To watch you, to guide you
Through the darkest of your days
If a great wave shall fall
It would fall upon us all
Well then I hope there's someone out there
Who can bring me back to you

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

Runaway with my heart
Runaway with my hope
Runaway with my love

I know now, just quite how
My life and love might still go on
In your heart, in your mind
I'll stay with you for all of time

If I could, then I would
I'll go wherever you will go
Way up high, or down low
I'll go wherever you will go

If I could turn back time
I'll go wherever you will go
If I could make you mine
I'll go wherever you will go
I'll go wherever you will go

[if i could. i would. i'd go wherever you will go. yeah... i would...]
there is a difference between envy and jealousy. haha. i looked it up. envy is when someone has something you don't have and you just have to work hard to get it. jealousy is when someone somehting you can never get. im jealous.:p bite me. lalang. guess. WALA LANG... :) peaceout...

tc raiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiine! kitakits! sa mcdo?:p

-ian-

poems. me again.:)

2005-04-04T04:17:00.000-07:00

lets just say im bored. :p just a short post. then a poem. well.. poems..

i chatted with POTCHI[nickie lang yan ata...] rainne[hindi pala raiine]:p a while ago. haha. dapat pla ka-soiree naman section nila sa AA... huh... June nalang. sabihin ko sa classmates ko. kami na mag-pplano...;p

RESORT:
in the spring resort nga pala... there was this FAT guy who looked like jabba the hut[im exaggerating-ok lang itsura nya!] lost his white gold earring. the resort's pool had about a million rocks and sand on the bottom. i found the earring. haha! yeah. after 20 min of searching the 5ft. deep pool... salamat cya ng salamat. and you know what? he lives in pasig. parang kme.. nag-vacation lang sa bicol.(legaspi) and when i gave him the earring, ung mga kasama nya nag-clap pa. wheeeeeeeeew.. whatta day. that one earring cost mga 1200 Php raw.. ;0 finding it felt, fulfilling somehow.. EWAn!!!^_^ whatever.. the guy was filthy rich anywayzzzzzz... huh. dapat di ko binigay.^_~ haha! jowk!:p

POEMS:-Patience-

kissed by sunlight in the morning,
the moment i wake up,
thinking of you in stretching,
or in sipping my coffee cup..:p

these days have gotten longer,
and so have the nights,
my views have gotten brighter,
adorned with many lights..

though thats me for sure,
im the underdog in the competition,
but still i persevere,
'cause you're my motivation,

and when i drift into slumber,
you're still on my mind,
even when i sink even farther,
still you i find...

i know you don't like me,
as much as you like him,
so what? let it be...
my chances really were dim..

ive been waiting for a long time,
for seven years, no eight!
in saying my 3 word line,
i guess its never too late...

whatever may meet me,
be it favorable or fickle fate,
i won't give a damn,
you're worth the wait...:)

ISA PAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-Replaceable-

am i a temporary aquaintance,
just here to keep you busy?just to make a quick entrance,
and then leave in a hurry?..

are you tired of me,
of my keeping it real?
that im too stupid to see,
that love is what you couldn't feel?

when a friend is drenched in tears,
and feels so alone,
is he comforted by his peers,
or is he left to moan?

are friends like toys?to be easily forgotten,
replaced by other girls and boys,
to be put in places hidden..

do friends last forever?
to where are they bound?
in a box, within a closet,
when new ones are found...:(

haha! sad no? naisip lang... gtg.. i am soooo craving starbux... p'zzzzz out!!!

-ian has left the [freakin'] building-haha!;p

from urban to rural to urban again.:p

2005-04-02T04:47:00.000-08:00

i havent posted in helluva long time.. :)

anyway.. after 2 weeks of spring res and hotel[1 lang ah..] hopping.. im back! to civilization! haha! but still.. i had a good time..

FRIENDS:
ang saya kasama cla R'R', Cham, Brian[not me, residents of pugad B, hey that ryhmes!!:p], Rowell, "ATE" Cyril/Twinkle[haha! ;->], Nanette, kuya EDward, kuya rowell, kuya Ares, annalene, ning, ann etc.. at ang aking mga MACHONG TITO. haha! yeah. all of them work out like.. 6 days a week.:O kakagulat. kaya pala ganun eh. ENIWEY.. wala! haha.. they're rich. lalang..

BOATING:
wala lang. masaya. we went to a few islands.. etc. with the tito's..^_^

[EWAN]: makulet?!!
ang kulet ni alyssa at ni nix. angelnix! haha.. text ng text. ang lakas magtext. wla nga akong load sa GLOBE!!! sun ko meron... pti c "ATE" cyril ang lakas mang-asar... tapos nandyan pa c ning... haha. at ang kanyang back-up, tito alex, c annalene, at ann.. pinagkaguluhan ako! ang LAKAS mang-asar tlga.. haha! mis u guys! super.. :p

FOOD:
inj pili[thats a place huh.] we stayed at my mom's friend's place. ANG LAKAS MAG_HANDA!!!!!!! as in for 9 people she'd serve food for 20.. and the variety... haha! squid-fried, adobo,etc.. chicken-fried, roasted , adobo, etc, AND there was different crab, 9 types of fish[yes 9], shrimp, a lot of veggies.. BASTA.. i get fulkl juts thinking about it..^_^

HOTEL:
i came from one just 7 hours ago. ha.. it was great. not much. 3 star.:) i loved the bath TUB, and the 3 pools.[masmaganda ung isang resort 13 pools!], and the buffet breakfast... haha. and the rooms we rented. huh. whatever. 3000 a night. -_- pede na...

RESORTS:
my favorite was the one in "Buwang..". damn. only 75 Php a head. nice place. cottages. 6ft deep pools. statues.. boats.. 13 pools.:) tourist spot. but i'd prefer club manila east anyday[golf-boating-...^_^ the only problem in the resort is in a valley. so even though it has THE MOST PLEASANT breeze, you have to go down and UP exactly 134 steps. i counted it. about 7 times. i needed the workout.;) inaasar ako ni Cyril.. huh.. payat ka payat!!! haha! PEACE. JOKE LANG PO!! [xenxa sa PO..;p hehe] bite me.

oonga pla. ang ganda ni analene. lalang. haha! whutever...

i threw my 2 fones against a wall mga 2 days ago. LALANG.... yeah. lalang..

THE POPE might die.. that sucks.. that really sucks.
pray...

i walked, well jogged literally 3 miles straight. ewan. i got tired. not exhausted. tired. haha! in PILI yan.. more like hasty hiking.. :p

ANYWAY... un lang..
[did you know 16 ung inner child ko.. i took a test. haha. no lie.]

tc guys.. lalo na c anne... :p

ian fades away..

just tests. haha!

2005-03-16T14:43:00.000-08:00

You Have A Type B+ Personality

B+

You're a pro at going with the flow
You love to kick back and take in everything life has to offer
A total joy to be around, people crave your stability.

While you're totally laid back, you can have bouts of hyperactivity.
Get into a project you love, and you won't stop until it's done
You're passionate - just selective about your passions

Do You Have a Type A Personality?

hahahahahahahahahahaha! lalang... ^_^

You Are A Romantic

You are more romantic than 80% of the population.

You life your life like a fairy tale... or at least you try to.
Living for magical moments, you believe there's only one true love for you.
Love is the most important thing in your life, and you don't take it for granted.
Your perfect match loves to be in love as much as you do!

Are You Romantic or Realistic?

yeah. bored ako! :p

You Are a Little Scary

You've got a nice edge to you. Use it.

How scary are you?

IM SCARY. rawwwwwrrrr... ^,..,^

How Your Attitude Ranks

Your Attitude is Better than 60% of the Population

If you scored...

80-100: You've got a winner attitude. You're always optimistic and cheery. Your personality will get you far in life.

60-79: You have a good attitude. While a realist, you do see the positive side of most things. People love to be around you.

40 - 59: You have a positive attitude... somtimes. You prefer to see the world through clear glasses, not rose colored ones.

20 - 39: You have an average attitude. You take the good and bad in life as they come. Though sometimes you could use a little more good.

0-19: You have a negative attitude. You tend to see the dark side of every situation. Free ice cream? No thanks, it will just make you fat!

How's Your Attitude?

uh-uh. whatever... sus. im gonna take a walk... AGAIN. :p

You Have OK Karma

You try to be a good person... well, sometimes you try!

While you are caring deep down, you don't always show it.

You're very focused on yourself, and others come second (if not third).

Which is fine. Others still focus on you.

How's Your Karma?

uh-uh.. yah. whatever... shaiza...

hayyyyy.. BUHAY.

2005-03-15T22:15:00.000-08:00

yup. kita kita kami ng mga dati kong mga kakalaseng mayayaman sa eastwood sa fri. huh.
whatever. sana starbux. dun naman kme magkikita... haha! at fazoli's ha?! palibre po! [and now i say "po"..]

this sunday i MIGHT be at the shang. shangri. uh-uh. buying stuff. eating at CPK. ya know. me stuff. haha! :)

we walked our 3 labradors kanina.. haha, Oreo, Barney[:p], and PrEtZeL[ung pangalan kapatid ko nagbigay huh...] haha! amboring. well, di naman gaano. it was a little boring, but it was a LITTLE fun.. haha! c kuya teng ang tibay!

i want to strangle my little sister. ugh. maliit na daga. dont ask. ^,..,^

bdm kami bukas. sa harap lang ng bahay. lalang.
OI MIGGY, basahin mo to! p2uro sa violin mo please?!!? haha! subukan ko lang... :p

im nearly finished writing the freakin' story. sana pagbigyan ako sa comp bukas. about 6 more pages in the M.Word to go.. but i might shorten it. huh.

ei,... ,.... we're going to bicol on saturday!!! haha. we're bringin' mah little czin along. yeah. roadtrip! ill buy some books on friday. maybe 3 or 4. and ill finish em'all along the way!!! haha. im easily bored..
ONCE there we'll go swimming in "amater".. the name sucks but the place is cool. im MEAN the water is as cold as ICE. its a natural spring res. not expensive. its like being dipped in ice when i dove in last year...

alyssa, sorry la aqng load pa sa globe cell.. txt ko sau kung meron na hah? at king di ako pupunta sa summer enrichment program.. masyado akong TAMAD! SEP.. sa admu.. yoko na..

argh. maybe ill just take a walk outside. though its late... and when i come back.. ewan! :p

-ian-

just another poem. :p

2005-03-15T13:45:00.000-08:00

-Regret-

why do tears flow,
my dear friend,
down your saddend brow?

small streams flowing,
silently through your crestfallen face,
you mourn alone; kneeling
deserted by both comfort and solace,

why is it that you weep?
are you broken hearted?
that her love you could not keep,
and both of you have then parted...

if so my situation is different,
'cause to confess i'd never thought to do,
to mention words such as an "I love you.."
why do your tears flow?

do you sense my suffering?
as my soul weeps as you do,
the knife impaled is forever piercing,
my heart in misery, forever crying

yeah. whatever. i wrote that last night. haha. before i started writing the freakin' story... :p

fade away... bd3p..

2005-03-13T12:40:00.000-08:00

im at home. munching away at Lays and Ruffles, dipping them in dip. :p

yeah. it means im doing nothing. but in doing nothing. i do something. i think. i reflect. i uhh.. think! haha! labo!

i woke up at 6:30 and finished a book at 7:53 this morning. the one i bought yesterday.. haha. it was titled "Tanis;the shadow years" nice book. huh. sad nga lang... matches my mood. anlabo kahapon ng gabi. i couldnt sleep. i couldnt. i just couldnt. my mind was busy, very busy and i kept thinking... :(

i slept at about 2:30 in the morning. yeah. nice. and i dreamt dreams.
PARANG may THEME nga eh.. first uh.. sad ung dream. basta. sad. tungkol sa akin at kung gaano ka walang kwenta buhay ko.. THEN[parang ako ung host sa -tales from the cypt...- HAHA!!] it became scary. i wont mention any details... bastah ganun...

ANYWAY''' again...
i still play guitar. but not that much. as an insignificant little hobby lang..

DOES ANYONE HERE KNOW the chords of 22, wherever you will go [w/ plucking technique], and hinahanap hanap kita..[w/ tabs! :p] IM me.. sa YM. ian_under15
THANX!

i USED TO COLLECT uh, miniatures. little pokemon models... little cars.. [smaller than matchboxcars!!!], little models of gundam. [about 3/4 of an inc tall] and others. wala lang. about 90% of that stuff got lost. somewhere. haha! share. ^_~

YESTERDAY..
i talked with migyy a.k.a. migs a.k.a. little boy mazo.. haha! joke..
GOD.you will be shocked.. its about #-#-#-#-#-#

LAM NIO ba c mark d. MERON NA!?! haha! ok lang yna mark di ko naman cnabi directly eh!!!! :)

uhm.. db 2 ung fone ko? t230, at 8210 lang. kc nanakaw ung 3300 ko last year.. ung 8210 di ko muna i-o-on. for a reason i wont reveal. ok? kaya mga ka-sun kong anne, king, vince, alyssa.. wag muna kau mag-text.. haha. un lang. *watches david blaine*

BABAY!!! bye!

song stuck in my head..
[she turned me away.. so now i'd be loving angels instead..]
-song by robbie williams(not the comedian)

-ian-

ive got a massive crush on you... but its only a crush..

2005-03-11T21:53:00.000-08:00

i've had a very very very BAD day... -_-

my wallet got stolen. [600 Php]

my ragnarok account got hacked. [ still have a few cool/nice/useful items thoguh]

and i think im going to quit guitar. yeah. i think. i might. i dont know... ive lost motivation or something, basta. ayoko na. its just going to be a hobby. [my WHOLE FAMILY PLAYS THE FREAKIN GUITAR. SO, ILL PLAY MAYBE ONCE in 2 MONTHs. its not that important anymore. im thinking of storing the the nylon, the steel, the bass[e-guitar], and DA ibanez e-guitar permanently. haha. :p

im just going to be swimming, jogging, biking[pasig to antipolo and vice versa. i might.], work-out, or, go to bicol. im not going to the alps. im not in the mood. i like it here better... stupid right?! :D

ANYWAY...
my sister, as anyone who knows her is that she's OK at guitar.[old songs; dust in the wind, song for annie, err, leader of the band. ung mga tinuro ko sa kanya.. haha. ill teach her better songs. tapos mag-gguitar lessons na cya. yeah.]

MY COUSINS FROM CA ARE coming thing may! well, last week of may or first week of june. pasalubong!!! haha! joke lang.. advance welcome.. [pshaw.] ^_^

im trying a new look. yup. as pathetic as it may sound. wala lang.. ethnic tribal stuff trip ko ngaun... necklaces[pang-GUY!], bracelets, "cuffs", anklets.. the like.. namimigay rin ako. i bought a LOT at megatrade hall. haha... pero bibigyan ko lang ata ung mga cuzins ko..

DID you know?! ung -GUAPO[hahahahahahaha! joke lang pare!] at adik sa DotA- kong classmate na c king, parang "2nd cousin in law ko pala. kakagulat diba? nalaman lang namin recently. ang tita nya, inasawa tito ko.. laboooooooooooooooooooo........ #_#

ei arbie.. do you want my electric guitar? tell me. i might give it to you! harhar.. har... no really. i MYT.

here's the song of the day. or the song ive been singing.. ewan. bastah e2 ung lyricsh!!! [sh?!!?]

-MASSIVE CRUSH-
the Barbs

I bought the manga & stole the guitars
He put the speakers in the back of my car
She killed her parents I left mine a note
I crossed my fingers, we drove to the coast

She's got her make-up, she puts her face on
And now we're getting quite a reputation
Good conversation, good conversation
Full of interesting observation

I've got a massive crush on you
And there's no limit to what I'll let you do
And when you speak to me well what can I say
With every whisper you blow me away

I like driving, I like to go fast
I like to see how many cars I can pass
I had a vision we'd never arrive
The whole journey in fear of his life

I've got a massive crush on you
And there's no limit to what I'll let you do
And the you beckon me & what can I say
With every gesture you lead me astray

I've got a massive crush on you
And there's no limit to what I'll let you do
You drag me everywhere you take me away
With all the little stupid things that you say, you say
I've got a massive crush on you
I've got a massive crush on you It may be massive
but it don't mean much
After all, it's only a crush..

ewan. im a small fan of the barbs.. i like a few songs...

basta. ewan. YM uli... queenie.. sorry tlgang di kta mtawagan. landline nalang kaya! QC k db? :p

i gave away my ragna account. haha. and i might give away my guitars. they've got no significant meaning anyWAYZ.. ;p oonga pla! cheskie, bili ako ng tickets para sa MCHS freshie night!!! 300 Php lang db?! and maybe ill treat some real friends out in starbux. ubusin ko na pera ko. ive never really used it on myself. yeah. i mean how important am i anyway? maybe this summer ill stop eating breakfast and lunch. call it my sacrifice. or my "artifice, my mask, my concealment, my pretense."... whatever. i dont know anymore. i dont know what to like, what to do, what to think...

hmm// so how should i end the F0*%1^& post... a blog fader is a "entrance of the blog. see the effects of THIS BLOG BEFORE YOU GOT HERE?!?! no!?!? click "back". then click the link back to my site. after you click the GODDAMNED alerts... the window sorta fades. it blurs. THATS my fader. still dont get it. YM ME.

i feel down. like the heel of a 500 pound. man is crushing my cheek on the rain sodden ground...
gdnyt every1...

-ian-

oooookay... :p

2005-03-09T19:46:00.000-08:00

You Are 30% Extrovert, 70% Introvert

You are quite reserved

You aren't afraid of social situations...

But you very much prefer to go it alone

And why not? You're your own best friend!

Are You An Extrovert or An Introvert?

yeah. whatever. surprising... yet true in a sense. GOD.

*ian is covered by a perpetual shadow of boredom...*

bored! kukuha nga ako ng mga test pa... :p

the tears of mother sky...

2005-03-08T21:35:00.000-08:00

2 posts IN ONE DAY! ITS MY RECORD! :P
HAhy. laging depressing poems ko no? haha. mas-gusto ko kasing ganyan...

e2 isa pang poem. tagal ko na 2ng ginawa nung 40 min period ng english kasi nag-advance na ako. di ako nakinig. ryt. anyway. ginamit ko naman rin sa english project.. panget cya as usual. ako gumawa eh. but! remember. dont plaigarize or else i will hunt you down. im serious. you dont want to know how the face of a person who, in YM, was pissing me off and insulting me, looked like when i tapped his shoulder, smiled and said his YM id. to him. and said mine. goD. he turned white! yeah. happy ending. use your imagination.

haha! just joking. i told him to stop. well, before that i smiled. "smile, it makes people think what you are thinking."---> love that quote.... neway... he apologized then just walked away. nagulat ata. sus. nakita ko lang pic nya sa friendster... then i recognized him. ho-hum...

E2 na ung poem! tama na ung dal-dal! its short. so?! :D haha! angas!

- Rain-

The tears of Mother Sky,
fally as i begin to cry,
she whispered goodbye,
my plea to God was; "why!?",

my feeling became hotter and hotter,
i thought of life as it went by...
as heard the patter of water,
my voice cracked; i felt bitter,

seeing my world crumbling,
hating my own heart beating,
guilt and depression grasping, tightening,
killing.

i could hear myself laughing,
i was reflecting, now running, jumping...
rain still falling.

haha! uhm, as a reflection to the OLD poem ko. the line "guilt and depression grasping, tightening,
killing."-- it meant that those feelings killed, destroyed, errr... disrupted his will to live. period.

its short, quaint, yet, with a touch of sadness... leaves a thought to be thought . :P woah. san un nanggaling?!
cge.. gotta go.. 2loG uli... BB people!

love you anne! ingat ka lagi...

ewan. random sequence. cge people! tc at ingats! nyt na kc... kc.. ... zzzZZZzzzZZZZzzzZZzzZZZzZzZzZzzzz...
joke lang. ewan... nyt...

fade away.

so cold. enjoy coke. :p

2005-03-08T14:15:00.000-08:00

and im back!
GOD. im so bored! especially with this wretched monotony of a life... right.

last night i had the strangest dream..[dream telling?! yehey! amf..]

--->>i was in a dimly lit corridor with dark blue walls, but they had a faded quality to them, and near part of the wall, where it and the floor met, was a black shade, like a shadow, but much, much darker.I walked through the corridor for hours, or so i think/thought.. then, i run.. like something was after me. for some reason, the scene suddenly changes. my arms and feet are bound tighly to ropes, and im spread-eagled, lying face-first on the floor, and i hear chanting. i try to move but im too tightly bound. then someone[?!] whispers in my ear, i dont, remember the words but i remember that right after, a painful sensation rips through my senses. a hard, heavy object keeps on hitting my back, blow after painful blow after painful blow... then everything stops, then i see the bottom of a cloak, a black on, stop about an inch from my head, then.. nothing. i see black. just black. then i hear screaming. then i realize it was just me... i was covered in blood, for what reason i do not know. then i see the cloak again. AND THEN I WAKE UP!

ang labo diba?! when i woke this morning, my back hurt like in the dream. but not that much. it felt like angelosat on it...[peace angelo kung nabasa mo man to!] freaky. and my wrists and ankles were a little chafed..neway.. dont want to talk 'bout anymore.. weird kasi. parang talagang nangyari... :O

sa 3 nga plang isha: uli! makulit ako... ^_^
isha [cuzin; krizia]
isha [shang or ishie or ish...]
isha [alyssa]
ung mga name nio nalang para di malito..

yehey. yesterday i bought 3 books. David Eddings-Enchanter's endgame.[one of my favorites... basta fantasy bibilihin ko agad...], uhm, a dragonlance series book; hilig ko ang mga ganyan.[maraming writers un eh!] and The sicilian[mario puzo].. i finished 2 them this morning.. haha! ewan...

e2 na ung poem. korni ha. ako gumawa eh. :pkainis tlagang miss ko na maging editor sa school paper.. may nagagawa ako eh! the joy of having your name. in print! hahahaha!
Artifice;[n. ar-ti-fis]

-Artifice-

a paper mache barrier,
you hide your wearer's facade,
emotions are behind you,
you show a faux charade...

adorned with bright colors,
you're displayed by your wearer,
people around you only see,
your faultless creaseless brow

since your making,
you've worn that frozen smile,
seemingly always happy 'bout something,
decieving people all the while..

before your false exterior,
that those around you behold,
is someone neither inferior nor superior,
nothing out of the ordinary mold,

yet what makes him different,
is that he is a great pretender,
that all his time is spent
to make all emotions colder..

fearful of feeling pain again,
he has accomplished this for years,
doing it since way back then,
just reaped held back tears...

all his cries are muffled,
by the concealment he had made,
masking anger, sadness even joy,
for heavy is the price to be paid...

deceit and lies are the cards he plays,
and falsehood is his game,
in his doorless room he stays,
with only himself to blame...

but before the pretender was a man,
and before the mas there was none,
before widthrawal was a plan,
from his woe he didn't run

that was far in the past,
ages to him it seems,
when he thought it could last,
one of life's joyous yet mournful themes...

behind his decieving pretense,
his fallacious mask,
is but a piece of who he was,
torn by the dispersing of illusion,

a fantasy,
a daydream,
a delusion,
then a trick,

this false impression,
is all he'll ever have,
a chimera,
its but a fabrication...

or in itself, a revelation.

WE ALL PRETEND. 'think bout it.

its summer, but i can't help but feel so cold. ok ok?[ala queenie!!! joke lang. heyy.. ill call you sumtime tommorrow or later k? k! :D]

can't get this freakin' song outta mah' head: :0
["if i could, then i would, i'd go wherever you will go..."]
'cause i cant get the freakin plucking! asar. pshaw... hehe.. :p

fade away.

i walk this lonely road... :p

2005-03-07T22:19:00.000-08:00

gawd. tagal ko rin di nag-post.[matagal un para sakn!] ahy. asar.

wala akong magawa sa buhay ko. haha. nagbabasa lang ako buong araw. sa kain, sa computer, sa tree house (its cool. polished floors, err.. shades.[wooden] uhm, pillows and its actually quite spacious...) at kung saan saan. i buy about 4 books a week. well. i used to. medyon tinamad nlang ako... so i gave exactly 40.70% of my collection.. haha! ang bait ko grabe.. [bite me] waaaa... mario puzo, dan[ny!? haha!] brown, ursula le guin, tom clancy and tens of tens[lol] of other writers.. dragonlance kc trip ko ngaun...

i threw my foneS ate the wall last uh, saturday night. ewan. pero walang nacra! lupet talaga pag fones ko. ngek.. lecheng buhay to.

EII!!! plz stop fighting on the TAGBOARD. apologies. i know 2 ishas. ERR... 3.ok fyn 3. alyssa, krizia, ang shang. use yer names nalang. it isnt a valid basis for a petty fight. you know what i mean. haha. kahit konti talk it out. please. peace..

DIFF TOPIC[sssssss]:

last saturday, i chatted with queenie. ang saya! :p she kept like like repeating like like, uhm words. ganun ka-labo. as in kunwari, k k, fyn fyn, tc tc, 143 143, bb bb, cge cge, andameeeeeeeeeeee... it got me everytime. shaiza![ahehehe... :">] tc po! ^_~

clarence hingi ka pa saken ng load di lang bahay mo susunugin ko. hmph. joke lang pre! e2... he R.A.P.E.s everyday. HE Reads A Passage Everyday. haha! nice one! patawa to kc at masayang kasama..

alSo last saturday we had a party @ a classmates house. not really a party, but we enjoyed it nonetheless. ps2, scrabble, beer[EJ:weh! softdrinks un... LoL], PC... the works. may webcam pa nga eh at nanggulo kami ng mga di pumunta.. malamang if your classmate's dad is famous.. sorry po! di sikat parents ko! so? i still love them just tha same!(guess_who:*its getting pinky pinky in here.. change topic poh!*) ewan. haha! i re-stringed my ibanez(TM) guitar. haha. i bought the most expensive. ang mahal! 400. syet... pero OK lang.

im gonna start writing stories. SHORT. more tommorrow. im sleepy...

the poem.. bukas na! nkakatamad. ang title im not sure, something to do with masks...

im sleepy. im tired. im depressed. haha. lets hope i change my mind, get on that f-ing plane to the Alps, and hope that on the way the plane crashes into the deep, blue, lugubrious ocean. sure. lets.

"remember. every so often we steal to the landd of what-might-have-been. but still, the doesnt soften the ache, we(I) feel when reality sets back in...">> im losing faith. i am realizing ive got false hope. but at least i got SOME hope to hang on to...-ian

1 4 3

god help me..

ewan. sama ng pakiramdam ko... kahit summer...:p

2005-03-03T17:37:00.000-08:00

life sucks. ayoko na. i cant. i quit. haha. un lang. masyado akong takot. kung ayaw mo di wag. tangina...

First things first. Si anne nakipagbreak na. ouch. sakit nun, sobra. PERO k lang yan! kaw pa. ^_~

ON ANOTHER TOPIC...

SUMMER NA NAMIN! yeah... nice. neato!(where the F did that come from!?)
Ewan. Did you know that I was supposed to go to New Zealand this summer? Yes. The Alps. BUT I declined. No reason. I just didn't want to be far from some1? naw... err.. something.. :D Pero maganda sana dun. ewan ko ba kung ano ang pumasok sa utak ko. (ngaun wala akong magawa: just watching 6 new DvDs, with 3 cups of coke, 2 dips and 2 bags of lays in hand... movie marathon!)

Haha. (ang ugali mo'y iba, di bagay sa 'ting dalawa... pakiusap sana..) ugh. lalang... nakikinig muna sa MtV bago manood ng DvD!

IsA pA? (ngunit di nagkatotoo, may nahanap kang iba... ang tibok ba ng PuSo mo... nagbago..[?])
Im might go 'tah da bonus tour thing ng simple plan at avril lavigne.. baka. sana. ata.

[im gonna be single for the rest of my life! LoL]
ei, im hungry... aha! japanese food anyone?

"Do you know what Napoleon gave Josephine? A golden locket. With this one-word inscription inside it, just one word; -DESTINY-."---->>FROM:"THE TERMINAL"

hayyy... bd3p. nanaman! aywan.. i feel... istreynj.. i feel; I FEEL! haha...

2005-02-26T23:30:00.000-08:00

sus.

wala akong nagawa nang pinilit ako ng (adopted? joke!) kong kapatid na pumunta sa RoseHill family day...
>nakita ko rin c ATE(yes ate) minnie. she's small. hahaha! just joking...

bastah. nung pumunta ako dun.. nyak. wala rin akong nagawa. kaya nag-guitara nalang ako mag-isa sa van namin habang nakabukas ung sun-roof. ahehe... kasama ko nga pla c patrick. PERO KAINIS TLGA! d na cya marunong mag-guitara... KJ KJ KJ! haha.. joke lang pre... :p (what a word; pre) well, then while i ws playing the guitar.. natawagan ko pla c anne! (aka karola aka karo) haha.. bait nya; magaling daw ako! LoL :D thanx for the comment... you made my day.. :p

i reviewed that nyt for the math exam. damn. i stopped @ 1 am, whilst i started @around 5:30 pm..
yeah.. that was blo0dY....
btw people; nakuha ko na ung lead ng 2-1-4... YES. nakuha ko na. haha. nagpa2ro ako sa classmate ko. yey.

im gonna post a new poem here pero exams na namin bukas kaya walang oras.. mayb next tym. wednsday perhaps? haha. basta. theme nya uh.. deception. ata. bastah. you decide...

QUOTES!!! haha. boring stupid heartbreak quotes. ewan. wala akong magawa eh!!! :D

"I'm scared to fall in love, scared to fall too fast, because whenever I fall in love, it just never seems to last."

You told me not to talk to you
So I told myself not to cry
But not talking to you for days
Just makes me wanna die!

You know how people say that if you wish for something enough it will come true... well I've been wishing for you every night and you still aren’t here.

I think it's weird when I love you, I think it's weird when I care I think it's weird when I want you, when you don’t even know I am there...

haha. bye!!!

ian faded away :p

errr... eat. post. get bored. sleep. anlabo... ^_^

2005-02-24T22:10:00.000-08:00

i am just so f-ing bored.

know what, one of the strings of my classical guitar broke. nung thurs last week! kainis tlga, bwiset na bwiset ako. kahit may electric na mas gusto ko pa rin ung classical... plucking hilig ko eh! sori po!! ewan.

exams na namin next week! pagkatapos... home free... ;p
im going to the rosehill family day. yey. yey! yey? *haha!* di ko alam kung gusto kong pumunta. heh. kung gusto ko. pero pupunta pa rin ako hah! wag mo pagalitan Minnieeee....

my cousin nga pla. pupunta cla uli d2 sa PiNaS ng june or july or august this year... haha... miss na miss ko na sila ate isha (aka krizia). RB(or arbie?!), ariel(M), and kuya anton; ang aking mga magagaling na pinsan.

ANTON:
magaling mag-drawing. matalino. LAGING may GF. aywan.

KRIZIA:
maarte na malakas mang-asar...(may BF ka na no? mag-react ka at 22o!)

RB:
parang anino ni kuya anton...(kikiam_kubori@yahoo.com) kay kuya anton yan. hapi? kontakt him.

ARIEL:
bata pa to... bastah. mabait.

sus. i earned to play "elesi" in 5-9 min. plucking na lang no! or "stairway to heaven"- HINDI ung telenovela este, chinovela; UNG song in Led Zeppelin. LOOK INTO IT! ^_^ though i watch S2H sometimes...
ngaun im looking for the chords of "hinahanaphanap kita.."

ian is bored. very very very bored. LoL

damn sad...

2005-02-20T21:22:00.000-08:00

I got this from friendster. from a bulletin. ganda... :')
kakaiyak no? hehe.. medyo.

The night was dreamy as the rain came down,
she said "Lets go for a ride away from town".
All through the ride she had nothing to say,
it's almost as if something stood in her way.
Then suddenly, it came, out of the blue.
"My parents said "i have to break up with you"
."I'm sorry" she said "i cant pretend",
"My parents said our love must end".
She took off his ring, as tears came from her eyes,
at the same time, the fear of losing her began to rise.
With tears threatening to fall,he held them back,
as he unconsciously parked his car on therail-road track.
he wrote something on a piece of paper,
held her hand and said "Read it later".
He always wished they would never part,
He said in a sad voice "You just broke my heart".
She opened the door and walked out in the rain,
Thats when she saw the lights of the train.
Realizing too late, at what she had sighted,
with the blink of an eye, the metal collided.
All she could remember, was blood running red,
and someone saying, "I'm sorry he's dead".
The ambulance sounded like an agony cry,
Then she read the paper and it said
"Without youI'd die"....

but one thing nga lang. I dont cry...
its simply sad. just that.

ian faded away.

hahy naku.. 15 na ako! im so f-ing OLD! ^_^

2005-02-20T20:11:00.000-08:00

birthday ko nung Feb 18.. nax, 15 na ako!!! wla lang... i took my friends out in starbux, there were 7 of them. MY TREAT! haha! so THAT day ang LAKI LAKI LAKI ng ginastos ko.. daym. 1400!!! pero kasamana ako nun. ;p wala lang. after that we practiced a filipino project. durng that tym, we also did 2-1-4 by river maya. di naman pala ganun kahirap. ngaun i can do a number of guitar pieces... ako isa sa magagaling sa plucking sa class ko! i can do only 12 kinds but im still learning! [fave song to play? anak! hehe... pinaka madali yun na plucking...]

thanx nga pala kai ANNE kasi g[n]reet nya ako sa BLOG NYA! what could be better than that? :D (btw nice layout!)

ganda ng nakuha kong e-itar... but i dont like the strings. so... papalitan ko. malamang... its cool. its fun. its LOUD. and its MY electric GUITAR!!! pero prefer ko pa rin ang traditional guitar. ung may metal strings...

YESTERDAY we had this sort-of end of year party. ganda. lupet. nag-perform ang "chalklit"... band ng mga kaklase ko. the BEST. enjoy kahit ung mga parents! tapos ang lupet rin ng mga MC.. c sprix at c angelo. (idol yan ng klase namin si sprix a.k.a. mark lorenzo reyes ang PINAKA MAGALING NA GUITARISTA SA MUNDO. yes. he's the f-ing idol of the class. walang kokontra. hahy. p**ha. kakainggit.) ^_~

DID YOU KNOW? 35 out of 41 students in MY class play the guitR OR ARE LEARNING TO PLAY. COOL!!!

im so old..

BTW... the blog sucks. i know that. ive got no time to fix it. at least i made most of it myself. i started with a basic blog from aoi. ROCK ON AOI!!! watashi no tomodachi desu!! if youre reading this, arigato![?]
bite me.

ian faded away.

..........napilitan ako.........

2005-02-14T20:06:00.000-08:00

ELOW... GREET KO LANG kau...

HAPPY VALENTINES!
HAPPY VALENTINES!
HAPPY VALENTINES!
HAPPY VALENTINES!
HAPPY VALENTINES!

haha... ewan. nagf-fade yung greeting. matatapos na yung araw eh! ewan. bored. walang nag-iba. life sucks. BORED!!! amf...

f-ing piece of crap. ^,..,^ Rrrraaaarrr...

happy valentines... ugh. i hate mondays. poem uli oh! :')

2005-02-13T16:00:00.000-08:00

Wala lang. I wrote this while in the computer cafe. Read it if you like. It sucks. Life sucks. I suck. Labo..

-Balance...-

'Tis the season of red and pink,
'tis the season of hearts,
where love of couples reach its brink,
or where some lovers part.

It's both a sad and happy time,
that lovers and those loved could see,
where suitors even try to rhyme,
to entrance their bride-to-be.

Joy is with those who have someone,
to hold, support, caress,
to them the challenge of courting is done,
for they have passed the test.

Yet the balance must be fullfilled,
the scale should be even!
It's what reality willed,
It's what always will happen...

Not everyone's happy on valentines day,
who'd rather just fade away...
who'd rather be home all day,
talking to god; they pray...

some people are visited by sadness,
wih a thick blanket of gloom,
they'd feel bad, easy to depress,
with nonexistent thoughts of doom...

such events take place,
when valentines comes,
where life picks up its pace,
where it's sad for some...

everything should be equal,
if there's black; there's white
one flies; one falls,
if there's dark; there's light!

Joy for those who have partners,
woe for those who have none,
I'm one of those lugubrious mourners,
who have lost sight of sun.

Among the warm colours of red and pink,
there are spots of black.
Of the thoughts that you think,
I have this one fact.

I love you,
but you can't love me,
but I'm covered by emotion's blindfold,
the reason I cannot see...

I quit; Ive lost this game,
I've got no chance....

It's just part of the balance,
to myself I tell...
Similar to the relation,
of Heaven and Hell.

'Tis the season of red and pink,
'tis the season of hearts.
Where love of couples reach its brink,
or where some lover's part.

Though I'm tainted black you'll see...
you'll always be in my heart.... =((

sry for the term but putang ina! Monday bukas. I hate mondays. Well.. minsan gusto ko. Minsan.

I might get an i-Pod for my birthday. Pero ayaw ko namang mahirapan ang parents ko... kaya baka ill ask for 5 thou nalang. its waaaaaaayyyyyy cheaper than an i-Pod....

eniwey... happy[wtf!?] valentines...
enjoi it with that special someone as long as you can! malay mo. kinabukasan wala na sya.
db? ewan. I wish every couple a nice, wonderful, happy and memorable relationship....

un lang... *sips on a starbux cup..* LoL

ian faded away.
who cares? i dont.

new car any1?!?! ^_^

2005-02-12T23:06:00.000-08:00

Haha.. yes! We got a new car.. an ESTIMA VAN!!!! Sunroof… TV, DVD player, mp3 player… 2 sunroofs nga pla!!!! Hahy.. ganda. Lupet. Parang masayang bad3p. ewan ko ba… AND YOU KNOW WHAT?!?! Ibibigay daw un sakin sa college. Well, not really ibibigay but…. Un ung gagamitin ko… nyak.... hehe… ang saya saya pa rin ah?

Anyway.. I wont put the lyrics of the songs na konompose ng unc ko at 2mulong lang ako ng konti.. ng KONTI… ung words lang naman at medyo sa tune... kasi raw… kaya di ilalagay, ang copyright or whatver.. KASI RAW; baka may gumaya. Sa amin amin lang ng friends ko un….. haha. Ang mga title RAW.. “Tao lamang”, “Kailangan Kita”, and lots lots more….

IM going to “BORROW” my unc’s guitar for a few years! Puede raw! That’s what he said.. Ill get it next Saturday.. yesh! ;p its not strat.. i think… tell you (pipol) soon…. ^_^

Obviously wala akong appeal, wala akong itsura… hindi ako gwapo… but I am a nice person. At kahit hanggang friends lang ako… PUEDE NA YUN!! Poem uli… pero di ako gumawa…. SI FRANCIS WILLIAM BOURDILLION ung pangalan.. short yet DEEP…. labo...

The night has a thousand eyes:

The night has a thousand eyes,
And the day but one;
Yet the light of the bright world dies
With the dying sun.

The mind has a thousand eyes,
And the heart but one;
Yet the light of a whole life dies,
When alove is done.

LUPET…Remember this beautiful line… “The heart has its own reason which reason alone cannot comprehend…” :’)

Bad3p ako until bday ko. At least. Wala kasing nagggreet eh! Ambait nyo lahat! ^_^

Un lang…

ian faded away….

im just bored. period. not in the mood. ^_^

2005-02-07T16:10:00.000-08:00

wala lang... im bored. bigtime. as in todo bored. wala kaming pasok eh...
presidents day or sumthin... labo. ;p

hey.. Im trying to play guitar again! haha.. kaya ko plang Anak-freddie aguilar, Wag na wag mong sasabihin... dust in da wind, megalomaniac... etc.. dami eh..
nagccmula lang uli! inspiration haha...

I bought a new MYMP cd. galing mo ate juris!!! pti ni kuya chin. i dnt knw the other guy nga lang... hehe. galing kc ng moderator namin pinaplay cla sa harap ng class namin. kabarkada kc! mztah na kaya cla?

galing ng unc ko. LuPET! marunong mag-guitar, piano, flute... mag-compose ng songz... ganda ng boses.. sus... inggit ako. ;p may records na nga un. dati. LoL. 22o un ha.

Life sucks. period. :D

Im NOT goin to buy a guitar anymore. im gonna borrow his 2 guitars. either. mayB his flying V 69'... pero impossible!!!! soooo... ung strat nya nalang.. haha... rawk on ti2 john!!!
daym it BORING.

ian faded away.... *poof* hehe.. joke lang. ^_~
paalam. sayonara! goodbye! ewan... :P

ian faded away....

No hope. Just dreams, tainted black. Haha! :D

2005-02-05T22:49:00.000-08:00

wala.. just posting.. I wrote this while in the leadership seminar... kc ako ang Internal Vice president ng Org namin! ;p Neway.. I wrote this from 12am-2:30 am nung hindi ako makatulog. It just poured out. hehe..

Dont wori... I'll add the tagboard.. give me time...

ABOUT the "seminar".. Nagkaroon kami ng 'amazing race'.. kakapagod, dapat "Race" nalang, walang "AMAZING!" LoL.. The food was OK... but bcos of a Starbux Marshmallow(MmmMmmMmm! hehehe...) Espresso.. di tlga ako maka 2log... tapos may lumalabas sa isip ko.. lagi kong nakikita. haha. Not a chance.

-not a chance..-

This is but a poem,
to express how I feel,
'cause this is the only topic,
that I can write with zeal...

Im not very good
that much I can tell you,
especially when Im not in the mood
or when Im feelin' blue.

a special something,
I have to discuss with you,
that 'something' I really have to talk about,
and to explain it through and through...

Im quite fond of you,
that indeed is true,
yet matters have come at hand,
and this Ive got to tell you...

Im content to be your friend,
again something I could say.
couldn't mention that 'I love you'..
not knowing what game I'd play...

You belong to someone else,
someone special,
someone good...

You like him a lot, I could tell,
wouldn't want to go in between,
ruin it all,
I'd rather go to hell.

If I really cared,
I'd let you go.
'cause if you don't really love me,
let it be so..

Its my turn to let live, let go,
I've got to set you free...
I can live with that,
knowing that your happy.

You were never mine to begin with,
I'll be just your friend.
In that state I'd be content...
Being close to you feels heaven sent...

Go on! Enjoy life,
love while it could last..
Im just by the sidelines,
just thinkin' 'bout the nonexistent past...

Move forward, don't hesitate,
Dont be like me... I decided 8 years too late...
bite me, Im just too shy..
I'll just be here living life; a lie...

To love you; thats beyond,
wouldn't want to break our bond...
Friendship! Thats for me...
I guess Im so blinded, Ive got to see

Now I've said most of what I've wanted to,
but dont forget this one thing,
my wasted heart will love you
'till the day I'd be dying...

I resign to my fate,
as around me shadows dance,
as three words come to my mind;
"not a chance, not a chance.."

wala akong magawa.................................................................ows?.............................................................
haha... labo..............................................................................................................................

peaceout.;p

hehe.. labo.. ^,.,^

2005-01-30T21:35:00.000-08:00

sana tamaan... joke! korni nito super.. lalang.. ginawa ko yan sa bulacan!
kulang ata sa IMAGERY... pero puede na.. :')

-secret...-

I loved at an early age,
an early time,
by my life's book,
an early page.

I was young,
grade one or two,
was a shy little boy,
to the world I was new...

It was then, an angel I saw.
a classmate,
she was perfect
nothing wrong, no flaw...

yet to her I was discrete,
my actions passive,
I bottled up my feelings,
the effort was massive.

I set those passions aside,
went on with my life,
but still, throughout the ride,
to myself i still lied...

I ignored my heart...
though 'twas a raging sea,
did not listen to what I felt,
through ignorance with it I dealt..
kept it all inside of me...

eight years since it was hidden,
it sprang to life again,
feelings that were held back tightl,
were sure to reawaken...

I am now a freshman,
my secret I'm going to say.
so I pray...
come what may,
come what may...

I was young,
grade one or two,
I once loved a person...
I still do.

Do you want to know my secret?
That angel was...
YOU...

ampanget... hehe.. (bakit ko pa pinost?!)
sana... ewan! pahabol eh no?

ang saya mag-biking sa bulacan. I wore a toit[tight! ala goldmember.. ^_^] bicycle shirt...
but my muscles... my legs anyway... hurt like H**l... woohooo... yet.. it was still an interestin' experience... we did it for 7 hours..
we went there last saturday to.. sunday..

b4 going there.. we went to duty free.. I got 2 new pairs of shuz! yeba.. I got a new cap etc.. 'cause my parents just came from Singapore! haha.. so in Duty FRee... More ferero rocher for meeee.... :D sarap tlga...
I wrote the poem above.. 7 stanzas are correct... the the others... wla... hehe..

'ztiG sa bulacan.. star gazing w/ my uncles.. haha...

Bd3p Bd3p Bd3p Bd3p... haha..
:') iyak tawa... iyak tawa... labo

un lang..

just another freakin' piece of crap..

2005-01-27T19:43:00.000-08:00

wala.. bored AGAIN.. bad3p... :'(

-BROKEN STRINGS-
>>>Ian

Deep into the night
rises the silent moon…
she who shines her light
on a player of quiet tunes

He sat there,
skillfully playing his strings
all the while mending
and caring for broken wings.

He sat there, in the dark, all alone
slowly strumming his guitar
mourning for the life he had known
the life which gave him a scar.

Darkness moved, to where he was,
still in place, still alone
behind the massive behemoth of stone
where Mass is held by day,
yet at night dancing shadows come
and play.

His music was perfect,
did not need the aid of voice,
so was she, whom he lost,
he didn’t have a choice.

Through his instrument
he shared his story
his grave lament
he expressed

She will never speak to him,
they’d never be friends at best…

In his music he asked,
What is love?
Is it as intimidating as a difficult task?
Or as delicate as a glass dove?

He even questioned God, creator
Lord for what was I made for?
He decided now and then,
So stupid and foolish the choice of men

Silence then reigned again,
his music was no more.

orig yan! haha.. bakit kaya laging bad ending poems ko? labo. ;p

just a poem..

2005-01-26T19:10:00.000-08:00

Fade away.. yan ung title.. pero binaboy ko yan sa english class..
here it goes!

-FADE AWAY-

Sometimes its not worth it
to know that your there
sometimes you have to dig deeper
to feel how much you care

sometimes its not worth it
to recieve a sign from you
sometimes you have to realize
that it's not easy to go through

sometimes its not worth it
to see your pictures everyday
sometimes you have to understand
your not there anyway.

sometimes its not worth it
to remember how it all began
sometimes it's not easy,
to accept that your gone.

haha.. panget no? un lang.. ;p

Still an angel tainted black... ^,..,^ grr.. hehe..

2005-01-26T18:37:00.000-08:00

ewan ko lang ba... tagal ko nang hindi nag-p-post!
tinatamad kasi! :p joke! di naman.. wala lang na oras.. hirap kasi ng peste kong buhay eh.

nung kris-mas(X-mas malamang) i got a lot of stuff... masaya lang talaga ako nang nalaman kong i had enough money to upgrade and customize m computer!! haha.. now it looks good. damn good. ill describe it to you.. in bulletin form... NAKAKATAMAD pag gagawin pang paragraph! ^_~

>Black CPU casing...
>See through side panel w/ spiderman(face/mask wtver!) design.
>red/blue/green light inside
>blue liner neon light.
>white sony flatscreen
>dual speaker
>large(?) bass speaker
>side lamp(bonus!!! hehe)
>black keyboard, mouse and pad.. at marami pang iba.. 'ztiG no? pride and joy ko yan!!!

im ALSO going to buy anElectric guitar!!!! B-day ko sa feb.. so im going to buy it using MY lifetime savings.. haha.. it has a long name so i dont really remember it... must have been bout 3 words... leather case.. etc. the works.. though i SUCK in guitar... T_T i can only play 1 classical piece!!!! i can learn 'cause i know more than some people in plucking, arpegio, and classical...

oonga pla! i went to eXurge... (eks-sur-jey) haha.. 'ztiG c nina, acafellas, nyoy volante, jimmy bondoc, paulo santos, aaaaatttt.... rivermaya!!! haha.. ang saya. tumatalon kaming lahat na ten audience.. nakakuha pa ako ng autograph... autographed poster. pero bibigay ko yan sa best friend kong c anne.. (www.thesocialanimal.blogspot.com) bait ko! KAPAL KO NO?! ^_^

im going to be posting some pics so watch out! hehe joke lang. nothing good.. but.. good enough i guess.. di ako guapo.. more like, wierd. haha.. ganun! baguhan lang kasi ako sa "blogging" eh.. well.. not really "baguhan", but i haven't known much. :D

http://www.blogthings.com/whatagequiz/ is an interesting test.. it determines what age do YOU act? haha... kita mo. i act like 18 raw! T_T pinatanda ako p*ch*! at least at that age i can drive already.. but i can drive kahit ngaun! haha. labo.. >_<

another interesting site is... http://www.murphys-laws.com haha... kakatawa! but still.. you have to admit it gives a real truth about life.. haha..lalu na ung love stuff.. hehe..

{for comments suggestions and violent reactions im at YM on ian_under15}
labo, violent reactions! LoL.. :p ewan...

bd3p tlga ako.. ewan ko kung bakit. feeling mo parang gus2 mong umiyak dahil sa buhay mo pero gus2 mo ring tumawa kc ang laki ng irony. haha... p*ch* ewan! bahala na...

Merry Christmas, Happy new year and whatever! Haha..^_^

2004-12-21T08:07:00.000-08:00

Greetings peepz....

Again, as usual. Im bored to death by the simple monotony of this life. Haha. Joke! Wala lang. To all my friends, family, relatives, guys, gals... HAPPY HOLIDAYS and GODBLESS.

I got gifts.. A lot, and its not yet the day we've all been waiting for. What did u get? ^_^
Only the fact that sucks is that I dont have any1 to dedicate this X-mas to... :(
Wala lang... Im greeting for the simple sake of greeting. Halatang palapit na ang X-mas, ang LAMIG dito sa taas ng Antipolo! On the very top of this somewhat wretched yet charming mountain in which I humbly live in. Hehehehehehehehe... TC everyone! And Godbless!

[silent night...]

The same blood that runs through my veins... YUCK! ;;;

2004-12-19T02:02:00.000-08:00

And so the story goes on and on and on and on.... [and on] ~_^

Strange... Im always thinkin' of sum1. Haha.. -_- And that person won't know. It's sad.
Though ruining my life and being the ever infallible wart in my day-to-day activities, I still like my sis'. So... happy Bday sister! [ang plastic ko talaga...] Just for the record; this IS and WILL ALWAYS BE the most pathetic post i will ever post>>> at the moment! Haha! Im evil... ;) Nag-aaway nga kami, usually around tues, thurs, and sat.... Hahahaha.... scheduled pa no?

Actually, I'm not evil, not that evil. Every one has 2 sides. Hence my URL 'angel taintedblack'. Nevermind! I'm bored... [yawn] ;)
Dammit... I'm depressed. But, who the f**k cares?
HAPPY BDAY SIS! [&_&]
MERRY XMAS! HAPPY NEW YEAR! and whatever occasion, holiday and or celebrations...
I am sooooooo... corny. BITE me... *,..,* [the "i thirst for blood" face...]

Just the usual... :-)

2004-12-17T01:10:00.000-08:00

Hi! ^_^

I'm bored, so I posted this. This' my new site.. I had a few others but they're not that good... So... I made a brand new start!

I bought 5 CDs last Wed. [Mojofly, Rivermaya, Sugarfree, Kitchie Nadal, Bamboo, Spongecola.] Here's my favorite song for the moment! Jeepney... by Spongecola. It's a nice song, depressing nga lang. 'astig... I got it from www.alwayslyrics.com™ You guys rock!

" Jeepney "
Album: Palabas

bumaba ako sa jeepney
kung saan taoy'y dating magkatabi
magkahalik ang pisngi nating dalawa
nating dalawa

panyo mo sa aking bulsa
oh ang kahapon ay naroon pa rin
tawa nati'y humahalay
sa init nating dalawa

[REFRAIN:]
subalit nagayo'y wala nawala na
ikaw ay lumayo na
lumayo na talagang lumayo na....

[CHORUS:]
naalala ko ang mga gabing nakahiga sa ilalaim ng kalawakan
naalala ko ang mga gabing magkatabi sa ulan

kulay ng iyong ngiti
at tikwas ng iyong buhok
ang lambot ng iyong labing
iyong labi...

kahit anino mo sa malayo
ay nais masulyapan kagad
upang mapawi ang lamig....

[REFRAIN:]

[CHORUS:]

[REFRAIN:]

[CHORUS:]

Wala lang... Napalitan na ako. But I guess... WALA! Just playin' with ya. Actually im considering commiting suicide... :( Wala talaga akong pag-asa... %$@&#*! (sigh)

Yesterday-[or a while ago for that matter...], I played ragnarok (wooooot~!!!) for 6 hours. From 11 pm to 5 am in the morinin'... I know its corny, but I don't have anything to post. Anyway, I gotta get sum sleep people! So this is ian, a.k.a. over_trip75 signing off... :D